Nerd Things.

Been a whiiiiiiiiiiiiiiile! :D

2011-03-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

Yo. *_*/

Let's see. This is semi-unorganized type of blog btw. I'm going to just say a few things along with pictures. I haven't been buying makeup a lot this year or towards end of last year because all my money currently now is focused on getting a new computer (hopefully) because I want to play Diablo 3 and FF on there sometime this year when they come out. lol

I did however did tiny splurges but yeah. I am renting Crysis2 for Xbox and BlackOps for PS3, I own the 360 ver. but had to RENT the PS3 ver. for my bf because he only plays most shooters on PS3 I guess. T-T

Anyway!

Moleskin Sketchbooks.

They came out pretty small.
I kind of think I should have bought them in person.
My measuring skills suck ass.
But I have 2.. if I don't use 2nd, I might give away. :D
The paper is awesome tho.
And I only bought these for like $4-5 dollars each.

Oh btw, I learned a lot of new art tools and such off of this guy, I recc.
his blog, it's awesome, and his YT is great too: Lung Sketching

Model 21 lashes.

I first spotted these on bebedolly69 I believe is her name
on YOUTUBE. And I was really wanting to get these lashes,
finally found a legit site instead of ebay or something, lol
Model21eyelashes.com

Shipping is free, and if you buy like 3 I think shipping becomes free,
if you buy 4, which I did, then you get free ship + free lashes pack. :D
I can't wait to wear these!

I'll do a later post/review on them and take pictures. :3

CRYSIS2

Rented this on Gamefly, got it two days after release.
The rating got 8.5-9., the game.
I rate it 8 myself. :D
The conn. so far is so so, otherwise I don't really have any complaints
about this game, but as for single player, I noticed it
saves on it's own, you can't save manually. ; _;
I found out the hard way running and gunning after I just finished
going through HELL! lol jk.

Lastly,

I've been drawing and gaming, I forget to blog. :o
My next post will be mostly pictures of my drawing and the link to them if you want to check them out. :D Last pictures below are recent pictures, took 2 days ago. I was going for the ulzzang look. (sp?) It's Korean/Japanese style eye makeup.

Laaater :D

VacantAura+VacantDoll.

2010-10-10T07:09:00.000-07:00

He asked me around midnight.
It's official. lol
10/10/10
:D

It's so early! I been sleeping right again, I think/hope. lol
I'm just talking to Sarah on FB atm.
Probably going to play some PSU, and me and Steven removed Dead Rising 2 off of our Gamefly list. He said it got bad reviews. I didn't play the first one much so I guess it doesn't matter to me enough to want to keep it on mine. So I guess I'm waiting on Sims 3 LMAO and Medal of Honor, and Black Ops!! :3

I'm still working on my blog, so there will b a few more changes, I don't like the template. I want to make my own when I have more patience. I'm kinda still waking up. Pwahaaha

Gaming, Life, Etc.

2010-10-09T18:14:00.001-07:00

Let's see. So there is not much to talk about. I have been playing my Xbox a lot more than last year. I've been playing Phantasy Star Universe like there is no tomorrow. :P There is a GBR (Guardians Boost Road).. I believe this is the 2-3rd time they did this for Parum. I found quite a few things, I was hoping to find a Lumira HP Restore but that will most likely drop in the next event called Absolute Zero, I think! Anyway, I managed to get 2 Psycho Wand [b]'s and 2 Delpic [b]'s. I bought like 3 EXTRA Delpic [b]'s though just to have and maybe sell later-later when the [b] becomes more valuable I guess.

I don't remember eating "oysters" in my entire lifetime! So today I had 2 fried oysters, couple fried shrimp and a piece of catfish and fries... for some reason it's by this asian family, forgot the name of the place, but my mom brought it home and they are pretty bad at frying french fries. lol I was like.. why don't you just put rice in there instead? I dono, cus I eat everything with rice. lmao

So.. Black Ops is coming soon! Next month! I can't wait for it. I will try it out on my PS3 and my Xbox360 for the achievements. It'll be different because I usually play shooters w/my ex all the time so now I'm going to be doing this alone and of course with Steven (whom I'm talking to atm). Sims3 should be out in a few days or so. And Little Big Planet 2 was pushed back or whatever. Based on what Steven tells me. Let's see.. excited for Gears 3 of course! I can't remember what else.. oh I will try out Medal f Honor, never played any of them.

New blog layout and banner, that's about it.

It's been a while.

2010-08-26T17:02:00.000-07:00

I was talking to Matt earlier and he suggested I write more or something about going on BlogSpot more. I haven't found time to do it with lazyness, okay, added in there, LAZYNESS.. :P Plus, my laptop is D-E-D-Z. I hope I get a new battery or w/e is wrong with it fixed. I only had it for a year. ;_; Sonovaaa!

About to hop on PSU and play w/Vacant. ;x

Philly! Mm, Philly.

Quick Collection: In The Groove & Other

2010-07-09T20:04:00.001-07:00

It's been a while! :/

I haven't really found the time to blog lately, but today! Something worth mentioning. I was always doubting since I missed out on Marine Life highlight blush from MAC a month or w/e ago. :P But was 2 days late, I kept checking the website obsessively waiting for A+O & In the Groove to come out. I even tried to save, but with gaming and art things in the way I almost felt like it was impossible. But I am VERYYYY EXCITED to say I got my first MSF. Only Mineralize thing I ever owned by MAC was this blush called Cheek and Cheerful that was almost a year ago lmao. This month I got: MSFs in Comfort, Petticoat, and STEREO ROSE!!!! Yeah.. I am so excited to have this. Like I was seriously doubting I'd never get it, and seeing pictures I just wanted it so bad. lol I'm really happy that I have it now. :) I also got a creemsheen (love creemsheens! :D) in On The Scene, and then I got a blush called: Hang Loose (It's a soft lavender and baby pink but comes on really light so it's a great highlighter from what I read :D :D) I also got lipstick in Jazzed. Really wanted Patissere because it's a soft pink matte too I believe plus the name was really cute, and I was watching this anime called Patissere lmao and when I was browsing lipsticks online I stumbled upon that and I was like omg I gotta have that. lmao

So OVERALL I'm so happy right now. :P One of those 'expensive splurges' kind of relieves a lot of 'stress' and unhappiness out of my life. haha. :)

I don't have my cam to take pics maybe in another update. :) :)

QUICK EOTD: Sugarpill - Royal Sugar 'blue cat eye'

2010-06-17T17:06:00.000-07:00

R O Y A L S U G A R :D
nomnomnom

Products used: All Sugarpill except the liquid liner by Loreal. Everything else, including blush is by Sugarpill (I used Decora for the pinky blush look on my cheeks. lol) Used: Royal Sugar, Decora (all loose e/s), the royal sugar was dipped w/a small precise brush w/water to line my eyes. Then the 4-palette in Sweetheart, I used Midori (the green e/s in the palette) to smoke out the blues. And a little but of Tako (the white e/s in the 4-palette of Sweetheart) as a highlighter.

Everything I used.
Yeah.. I keep everything in box. lol I dunno why, I feel it's safer in the box,
plus I love packaging. haha

You can skip out on the liquid liner in black, it actually looks prettier w/just blue.

(flash) loose shadow: royal sugar (the blue allover lid and used as my eyebrows, haha)
matte shadow in 4-palette sweetheart called 'midori' used allover crease slightly towards brow bone but not too much, then blended w/tako.

I forgot to add I used a little bit of the single e/s in Bulletproof on my waterline, not exactly on it but slightly below then layed on top w/a little bit of NYX black liner.

My face is NC35 by MAC, and I used a little bit of Maybelline concealer in light under my eyes. The highlight of my nose and upper cheeks is Benefits high beam and the last thing is my lips, I used EOS lipbalm and then used Viva Glam Gaga..

Makeup Post: SugarPill Cosmetics (part one)

2010-06-14T18:07:00.000-07:00

image posted on my twitter in big thanks to shrinkle for making such beautiful makeup. :D

Notes: Hi. :D So before I make a post about this product. I purchased this with my OWN moola (money, cash, USD... and so on lol. =_=). I found the site on my own then through YouTube from reviewers and makeup guru's. I'm no professional. Just a plain nerdy girl that is in love with video gaming and makeup thrown in the mix. :D :D lol

What is SugarPill?

SugarPill is a brand new makeup line made by the lovely 'Shrinkle'. Her name is also Amy from what I seen allover the net. I do not know her personally btw. but so far I really admire her. From her outrageous style to her take a second look at her makeup (it's really amazing!)

How I found SugarPill: I found the website months ago when I wanted to find something more bright and pigmented. I came across YouTube and I believe it was xSparkage and Petrilude that did reviews and tutorials on the brand.

Purchasing & Thoughts: I finally decided to buy my own and it only took 3 days tops to get to my house. lol I was really happy with everything. From the minute it entered my house and from opening it to using it. The box, you can tell she and whomever packs it puts it into heart. She even puts stickers everywhere and when you open it there is the order form AND she writes a small note of thanks or if she knows you personally she writes messages so you know it's def her thanking you directly which I really love!

The packaging: The makeup as you can see by pictures below they are SOOOOOOOOOOO cute. Words really can't describe how adorable and artistic they are to me. The cartoon/manga like girl on the packaging was what really caught my attention! I love the black as the main color for the products. The 4-color palette is thick an hefty, the mirror is bigger than the usual makeup mirrors you get from other brands. When I put on makeup I always thought the mirrors on most makeup should be bigger and this mirror is just right! I only fear that I might break the binding of the palette but it's always fixable w/ducktape lol or transfer to a stronger palette. I am a very careful person so I don't really see that happening to me because I take care of my stuff to an EXTREEEEEME. :D Anyway, there is also loose shadows that come in jars 5grams .19oz, then the single pressed shadows that come in 4g .14oz same goes w/the 4-palette. They are the same size as the single pressed shadows.

The price: 4-palette shadows are $34.00, the single shadows are $12.00 as well as the loose shadows at $12.00, you can also purchase 2 different types of false lashes for $8.00 a piece and there is a $1.00 sticker of the cosmetics logo. She also throws in a free sticker w/every purchase. :D

The Shipping: $75 dollars purchase - free ship worldwide! Anything below is a simple $5.00 shipping payment, which is awesome!

Application: Loose Shadow. In terms.. it is loose so you can honestly use this ALONE or dab some water, fix+, or w/e you use to wet your eyeshadows to get them to appear. I used this thing called mark. mist opportunity multi tasking refresher spray..lol. I never used fix+ so I woul believe they work almost the same and it's like water I guess. ANYWAY. :D So I use that, spray a tiny bit on my brush, swivel it on the loose shadow cap and pow! it's on the lids... did I just say pow!? Where did I hear this from... I think I been reading too much OMGTila blogs.. lol. Anyway. :D If you are wondering the spray has kiwi and grapefruit, lemongrass and bamboo extracts. I really love this spray, esp. when it's hot here in Louisiana and I spritz this on my face to get some coolness going, haha. So not to get off subject real quick you can still get it at: www.meetmark.com. The pressed shadows are EXTREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEMELY pigmented. Not even exaggerating on this. They are so pigmented. I bought the 4-palette to save more money so I got 8 colorful ones in 2 palettes and 1 matted black. They are a teeny bit chakly, but applies smoothly and very blendable. The loose shaows work the same but I prefer them over one of the other shadows to give it a wet/metallic/sleek/shiny look to the matted. They are seriously fun to work with so I urge you guys that love bright, fun, pigmented types of makeup... this is the real deal!! I don't think I need to look for anything brighter or pigmented. SugarPill is my new love. :] :]

Rating: I think Vegeta has a better way of saying it *click here*

Pictures: (No particular order but pics from unboxing to opening and one swatch pic also.)

I was on my friends blog (www.snakelinksonic.blogspot.com). About to open it! :D

She personally packs and write you a sweet thank you. :D

wrapped in pink tissue paperrrrrrrr =^^=

you know that feeling when you get christmas gifts?
yeah.
i felt this feeling x10.
:D

4-palette "burning heart"

4-palette "sweet heart"

burning heart [left] sweet heart [right]
so preeeetty. O___O

bulletproof (matte black e/s)

bulletproof (matte black e/s) opened! :o

royal sugar, decora, lumi (loose shadows)
5 grams .19 oz

small overview of everything. the boxes are too cute to toss out. i'm going to put them up on my bookshelf as display. i need a bigger bookshelf.. better yet im thinking of getting a 4 drawer acrylic drawer just for these! to show off in my room, haha. they are just too cute not to look at. :)

PICTURE TAKEN WITH FLASH.

[left] pressed shadows from the 4-palette an single. there is no base under, just a swatch from a q-tip. [right] loose shadow left side is plain swatch right side is the wet swatch. it wore a little because the glove i was wearing over it while dying my sisters hair earlier rubbed it off some, but it has a good staying power for sticking onto my hand that long. lol :D

Notice: The title says part one. I plan on purchasing the rest of her makeup line next month. So I will do another blog on it as part two. (I was going to do a video but I'm not so great at explaining things. haha)

WWW.SUGARPILL.NET
*_*

don't wait any longer!
so prettyyyy. haha :3

Random Post: Cleaning out MY closet. lolwut?

2010-05-29T10:36:00.000-07:00

I was hesitant to write about these 'things'. I've had them since gawdwhoknowswut!? My brother gave these to me as a gift when I was like... big time anime nerd. (Judging by the dates it's probably from roughly 1998-2000). I was probably 11-12ish then. (24 now btw.) But wow! That's quite some time, the condition I'd say is great, but the boxes took a lot of wear on them, but for years they were sitting on my top shelf closet. Sometimes if I remembered them I'd take them down and look at them, lol. Other times they would collect dust for a very very very long time, but today I gave them some air. :P I might clean off the dust but I honestly kind of like old things staying old if that makes sense, I guess that might be disgusting for people that are very 'cleany' types. I am a cleany type but I also like things antique, does that make sense? I dunno. LMAO.

TETSUO. I think he was my fav. I think he was everyone's fav. ?? Kaneda was alright but I think Tetsuo was the best. AKIRA is probably one of the best anime's HANDS MUHFUGGIN DOWN. (lol) No but seriously, if you haven't seen it, check it out. People are probably like no it's not but I dunno, we have our opinions, I miss anime like this though to be honest. The cutesy stuff is alright but if you want raw, real, and lolwtf kind of anime. Akira is your best bet. (Ninja Scroll is awesome too btw. I'd say Vampire Hunter D but I feel like that's played out too much, or something. There's a lot more but to be honest those are the main old classics I believe should be mentioned. And if you want beautiful anime then there's always Spirited Away & Princess Mononoke.)

Tower of Spawn.com characters (Notes: I had other figures that I did open, they were mini Tenchi Muyo characters that I gave to my ex. Meh)

Just an overview.

Ghost / Armitage / Tenchi

Tetsuo / Akira / "Joker" (clan biker leader -- sucks he died so easily ;_;)

Got these on my bday recently, like on my 23rd I mean.
From an XBL friend. lol (Thanks L / aka Sticky)

("betch, where's my foot")

BIG-O !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lmao. To be honest, I can't remember if that was really mine or not.
My ex liked Big-O just as much as I did.
The main guy (gawd I forgot his name..lmao)
& Dorothy. I had those figures too.

THIS IS LIKE TOTALLY OFF SUBJECT BUT WHILE I WAS LOOKING AT MY FIGURES. I CAME ACROSS THIS. This is old. Sorry caps. lol But I did this like 5-6years ago in highschool. Looking back at it, I still only like the zoomed out mailbox. So awful. lmao.

Sunday Rant #4

2010-05-29T08:29:00.000-07:00

Rosco woke me up this morning, I feel bad. lol Cus what I'm about to say might be embarrassing for him but he "wet the bed" sort of thing. Well he wet the floor near my door. Then peed more by the back door, lmao.

lol.

Face Stuffies.
Honestly that seems a lot but I'm honestly lazy with my "routine" I had going. I use the yellow bottle (moistureizer one) like every now and then, not as often, because during winter my face seems a lot more dry. So that's sort of my go to moisturizer because it's so moisturizing. The cons of is the smell maybe. The pros is the extreme moisture and the size, I believe this might be one of the biggest bottles but I've had this since December I think. And little goes long way when you use this. But I have combination skin so I don't use it too much often -- As for toners I use both, Clinique for face and Eskinol for neck, I use the LOREAL gel cleanser if I have no more makeup wipes, and the Clinique gel cleanser after I use the St. Ives oatmeal scrub. I recently started using Purity, I don't know what to say of it, I used it 3 times so far and first try I used very little, second time I increased usage and it seemed foamy, last time I used was last night. So far I noticed it leaves my skin somewhat soft, I feel my face is more clean, but I always feel that from my other face routines... cons is probably the smell? I don't know if it's just me but I think it smells like some kind of bar soap, like the cheap kind at a hotel or something lol. No offense, but overall I give it a 3 out of 5.

(Eww iknorite!? lmfao!! O_O)

My kubara (This is PSU terms lmao) version (fake) of Julep masque.
This is actually the CVS brand and I'm assuming it works just the same.
This is my favorite thing to do after all that face cleaning or tiring day, or when my skin feels like shit basically. lmao. It seriously lifts out a lot of impurities in my skin and deeply penetrates my pores and just does all the work that sometimes face cleansers won't do. Feels really great once removed to when the air hits my face I get this super cold-minty-fresh feel going. (Damn I need a cigarette for that one. ROFL! Jk. Not really.) :P

So another random thing besides face stuff. My video games seem to not be moving forward/budging, think the newest game I bought up to date was the MW2 and the FFXIII oh and ODST on Gamefly. I dunno, just lately, I guess you can call me cheap or just really cautious of what I buy in video games lately. I don't really go by reviews but sometimes I trust some people and it never fails. But the next games I did want to get or rent was Splinter Cell (that I posted on my 1up site a while back), Lost Planet 2, and I still haven't played Bioshock 2.

A couple of my games aren't exactly missing because a while back a friend of mine convinced me to trade in 6 of my games (which I regret to this day since I'm 1. a collector of some sort. 2. packrat. 3. PACKRAT. lol) Anyway, I just felt a little jipped I guess when I traded them in to put towards my MW2 that I was very excited about on day one when I picked it up the night it was released... then come to find out I actually started to dislike it, the game overall wasn't bad I give it that, but then the online play is probably one of the worst online play I ever played. You can either say, oh you suck or you haven't played enough or whatever, but seriously.. the game is so random. I can go fucking 20 and 0 in one game, no lies. Then go negative 15 and 3. The game is RANDOM! But anyway, I been playing it a little more again, double exp. So that's something to play for right? lol.

The place where I'm at besides glued to my Xbox..or whatever..
Drawing a lot more lately. And, yeah. I dropped my laptop couple months ago. Yeah.. I band aided it. :/ It's still alive and working though, changed my wallpaper, and my wacom pad still collects dust or is used as a marker board pad thing because I lack inspiration or just I'm starting to feel like I suck overall using that.

OKAYYYYYYYYY - I had to edit this part. I ended up ranting about "past relationships" because of the Wacom pad was a gift from the ex. So I erased it all. lmao.

Anyway, later.

EOTD: Summer Pastels.

2010-05-28T17:52:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello. =]
Summer is here!
Greens & Corals FTW! lol
But soft, yet dramatic I suppose, if you want it to be.
Add lashes if you want more dramatic.
OR deepen your corners w/darker black.

I'll list below what I used for my face.

Trimmed my bangs again. =_=; lol

Kinda opened up my eyes more. O_O

PRODUCTS USED:

1. MUFE HD foundation #123
2. MUFE HD powder
3. HD primer
4. ELF eyeshadow brush
5. dark brown mascara LOREAL
6. MAC creemsheen in Fashion Scoop
7. REVLON lipstick in Soft Nude (primed lip w/E.O.S.)
8. NYX double sided pencil in dark brown & black
9. N.Y.C. blushable creme stick in 644U Plaza Pink (my fav go to blush lately!)
10. ELF mini kabuki brush (studio)
11. LOREAL intense liquid liner (black)
12. Maybelline concealer
13. VS PRO concealer palette
14. UDPP
15. Hands, Sponge (lol)

16. COASTAL SCENTS 88 SHIMMER PALETTE (below)

I decorated it w/my Hello Kitty stickers. :P

Inside of palette. I had them circled w/what I used but I used mostly greens, lighter shades at top left corner and far right (the peachy one for brow highlight), the rest I used far right 4th going down, then the black to give more dephth. :)

Picture Post: Dallas, TX Trip & "Makeup Haul.

2010-05-20T11:10:00.000-07:00

BEFORE I START. Sorry I didn't see you Arii :[ Maybe some other time when I am able to drive lol or something or I dono. But yeah. Miss youuuu :o

Going to Dallas, TX I just remember loving Jack In The Box eggrolls. I think I accumulated like 4-5 of those in 2 days. I went to the Galleria Mall yesterday before I returned home and the day before there were a lot of "Outlets" and "Strip Malls" that I went into. I stopped at GameStop, Payless (I dono why when I don't wear shoes that often lol probably to get cool air because all that walking was exhausting), Genghis Grill, a very nice Mongolian Restaurant! I now know why my friend said we should have one of these and we def. should, I'd prob go there once a month. The food was great, I give it a 4 out of 5 (4 cus the way the layout of the place was cluttered I guess? lol but the service was great but yeah, also a 4 cus it tasted like food I make lol). Anyway, went to ULTA, and 2 different Sephora's and my first CCO experience (Cosmetic Company Outlet btw) was okay. I saw Warriors and a couple years back Holiday Collection, 1 thing of Hello Kitty and the rest was all random collections. None that caught my eye really. I bought my first Creemsheen glass.. I love it. :) It was recommended to me from this gorgeous guy lol. He reminded me of Greggory Gorgeous. His skin was so amazing!! lol. Anyway, this is just going to be a couple of pictures, I had a lot of video footage I might squish together later on my Movie thing and maybe upload it. There was some parts where I was just waking up. D:

ONWARD~ Picturessss...

Stuff from MAC :D

3 new lip products I bought was: Fashion Scoop, Please Me, Creme Cup.

They sort of look a like except one has more of a blue tone in it. Umm, I believe my favorite was Please Me, the Creme Cup was picked for me buy one of the sellers.. which I come to not really "love". Please Me is my newest fav. pink lipstick by MAC now besides the GaGa. =] I really wish I grabbed Hue and Angel and Creme de Nude, maybe next time ! :D

Stuff from SEPHORA. :3

A couple favorite Guru's / Vloggers like Fafinettex3 and my friend FoolishxLady uses Purity (I think I saw a video of her trying to use it all up) anyway, I decided to grab a small travel size, it was like $10 dollars so I figured what the heck. I haven't used any of the products I bought yet but I want to maybe tonight or tomorrow. lol I was honestly looking for Clinique Clarifying toner thing in a huge bottle but couldn't see any prices on it, I should've just grabbed it anyway. :/ lol Anyway I still have a lot left so I'm going to use it up then get another. :) Also, the rest is all MUFE stuff and Shu's eye lashes curler I been wanting foreverrrrr. :P

I don't think I splurged much, total was $106.09, I got the: Philosophy Purity for $10.00, Shu Eyelash Curler for $19.00, MUFE HD Liquid Foundation #123 $40.00, MUFE Complexion Travel Kit (contains: HD High Def Primer, HD High Def Elixir, HD High ef Powder - which I was mostly wanting to begin with lol) at $29.00.

Take a swim in my Powerade Slush.. :D :D lol It was so hot so I was drinking slushies mostly. :D

Passed a McDonalds, first one I seen, I guess the area I was in didn't have McDonald's, mostly Jack in the Box and more high end places but this was nice to see, and it was cute! It's a Happy Meal Box McDonalds!? :P lol

Was at the side of the Galleria and took a picture of this building, I just liked the layout. lol

I forgot to color in the gap in my wing part. :[ I was in a hurry but I liked how my makeup turned out, I only used a little bit of eyeshadow that day and barely any foundation so I could match up my skin tone w/the MUFE foundation. I was being brave that day. Haha! :P

Sarah's box of doughnuts. lol I just took a picture of the box, I love packaging, haha! But this was my first time ever trying Dunkin Doughnuts, wasn't sure what to get so I got....

This bag full of...

"leftover" HOLES. LMAO. It was alright, I still like Southern Maid. Sorry Dunkin Doughnuts.. lol but Southern Maid Doughnuts is where it's at. :x

It actually wasn't all that great. :/ I still love the Egg McMuffin at McDonald's more.

I spot ANOTHER donuts place. lol

My Kroger here is more ghetto looking.. lol O_O

Quick stop at Ulta.

Been eyeing that Kiddie Pool e/s by Urban Decay for a while. It's sooo pretty.. :)

Before I went to Texas.

They were all on sale. :D

I haven't read them yet. ;_;

The apartments we stayed at. Her brother lives here. :D

Bought these at ULTA. First time seeing NYX at an ULTA I was disappointed, they didn't have a Milk Jumbo Pencil.. and they were all over priced! Like 6.99 I believe.. :/ So I bought 3, 2for1 deal. But I wasn't satisfied with my purchase like I seriously think the lighting is messed up in stores it was so nice in the store but when I tried it it was awful. I can work with this thought by using some nude lip color to tone it down though, and that new MAC creemsheen might help too. I need to get a lip brush though, I don't want to mess up the tip of the glass. lol

Urband Decay's Kiddie Pool e/s.

new Urban Decay primer. I actually love this more than the regular one! It's more matted and I love it's staying power and it matches my skine tone more. :)

Took a picture of this for my little sister. That's her name. Haha :D

Guess that's it! like, I really didn't get to to as much but everything was alright, umm, I went to Genghis Grill, it's a Mongolian Restaurant and you got the customize your food and pick w/e and season w/e. That place was amazingggg. :D

Misc. Post: Asian Market Shops.

2010-05-09T18:38:00.000-07:00

N O M x o x o

For Mother's Day I didn't do much, I wished my mom a happy one, we went to the Asian Market and got a couple things. I got my fav. snacks, Nori Crackers, Adobo Flavored Crackers, and green tea!

Then headed to a Korean store near my house that is owned by a sweet old lady that we've known for 10+ years that owns the place.. and I noticed on the counter that she was selling this product that I used to use a lot when I was in middle school, I was seriously excited for the find and immediately had to buy it. lol Then I noticed a "whiterning" solution... lately I have been curious about "skin whitening" things... this will be my first product. I just want to clear discoloration of my skin, and I really love this Eskinol it seriously seals my pores.

Makeup Review: Viva Glam GaGa / Pink Lipstick.

2010-05-09T18:00:00.000-07:00

Lips like Barbie.

Products Used to achieve this glossy pink goodness. :D

-- Viva Glam GaGa $14.00 (www.maccosmetics.com)
-- Rimmel London Sweet Jelly Sheer Lipgloss in #160 Candy Floss
-- E.O.S. lip balm in Passion Fruit (I use this before I use any lip products)

Review:

E.O.S. lip balm I stumbled upon at a Rite Aid, my local drugstore. It retails for $3USD. The lip balm comes in a cute ball like packaging, once open it's a dome shape inside. EASY to apply on lips, leaves lips moistured and not very sticky either. Unlike most balms I have used either have a tingly sensation or have an awful waxy smell. This one is in passion fruit. I think of grapefruit oranges or something when I happen to taste it a little. This is a great balm to use before applying any lip product because your lips need the moisture before the lip products dry out your lips. It lasts fairly long, prob. 3-4 hours under the lip product.

Rimmels Sheer Gloss is awesome. HANDS DOWN. Like, I can't compare it to anything "high end" because I've been a huge fan of Rimmel's glosses for a while now. I like Revlon's as well but some are a bit sticky this one is sheer, lightly sticky but in a "glide" on sense. Leaving lips very shiny and somewhat a wet feel. This is not the best gloss for those that tend to lick their lips or don't want gloss in their food as they eat. The flavor is a bit bland, somewhat sweet but kind of like a watermelon, but not a sweet one, a plain one. Haha. Anyway-- e_e;;

Viva Glam Gaga is a lustre lipstick. Creamy, Easy to apply, takes about 1-2 swatches and you can surely get the perfect color your prefer. I kinda compare this to Revlons Baby Pink lipstick but Revlon isn't as a "matte like" color Gaga pays off. So I'd prob. pick Gaga over Revlons. lol

ANYWAY... basically this is the lipstick look I been using w/my colorful eye makeup lately. It's vy far my most fav. this past couple months. =]

EOTD: Warm Shimmer w/Specs Look.

2010-04-30T10:40:00.000-07:00

EOTD: WARM SHIMMER
WITH SPECSSSS LOOK.

To achieve this look is fairly simple.
You don't even need to buy "expensive" or "high end" products for this mini picture tutorial.
By the way the specs are fake.
It's plastic. They used to be a 3-D pair, I cut out the lense things. lol

HAI GUYSSS :D LOL.

Below are the products I used, all from Drug Stores.
ONLY EXCEPT ONE, The NYX Jumbo Pencil in Orange,
I bought it for a $1.00 on the Dollar Sale they had couple months ago.
You can still get this at nyxcosmetics.com and cherryculture.com

DrugStore Products List:
Maybelline Concealer & Liquid Mineral Foundation
Maybelline Pulse Mascara
Maybelline Eye Studio gel liner
REVLON Soft Nude Lipstick
LOREAL single e/s in Noir
LOREAL loose shimmer powder in Orb & Sugar Coated

The Look.

LOREAL Loose Shimmer in ORB and SUGAR COATED.

ORB on lids, SUGAR COATED on CREASE to brow bone.

Use any kind of brush to pat on lids.
Top view of the product if you're wondering.

Check how they look w/specs.

Use any kind of lashes or just mascara.
I used these lashes because they're semi long, thin, and not over dramatic.

With the lashes up close.

Next part I used gel liner and the e/s by LOREAL,

I use e/s to set over gel liner to it doesn't look too dark,
so it'll give off a soft grey.

Upclose of the eyeshadow over the gel liner.

Use any nude lip color or pink, actually any color, this look can pull it off w/any lip color but I prefer this since I used a somewhat dark tone on my eyes. You'll want people to notice your eyes more than your lips. Just my opinion.

This is the NYX Jumbo Pencil I used for my cheeks w/a reg. blush type of brush.
All brushes are from Beauy of Essence. Any drugstore carries these. I believe.

Finished look, view of entire face.

EOTD: Ocean Frost / Semi Smokey-Look.

2010-04-26T20:21:00.000-07:00

E O T D

O C E A N F R O S T
&
S E M I - S M O K E Y L O O K

PRODUCTS USED :
NYX e/s in Space (matte)
NYX e/s in Ocean Frost (glitter)
NYX double sided eyeliner in Silver Glitter / Black
NYX double sided eyeliner in Electric Blue / Black
U D P P
HIGH BEAM for brow bone, tear ducts
MAYBELLINE Pulse mascara
LOREAL Intense Liquid Eyeliner
brows used 2 shades lighter brown
MAX Factor in Natural water activated foundation
Victoria Secret Pro Camo Concealer Palette
Soft Nude by Revlon lipstick
Clinique's Dramatically Different Moisturizer
for face before applying everything
DUO Glue
Tweezerman Tweezers
Drugstore Product eyelash curler
NYX eyelash no. 122's

Basic Steps:
UDPP allover lid up to brow bone
Pat Ocean Frost on lid close to crease line of lid
Use Space above crease and blend away towards brow bone
add highlight, any lighter shade, I used high beam's highlighter
Line eyes w/any eyeliner, a blue can work w/this look, I used black though
Applies false lashes half way on eyes
colored brows in 2 shades lighter

RESULTS:
Use same Ocean Frost for lower lash line over the electric blue eyeliner.
Then use other side of eye liner (or a black or blue) to darken corner lower line.
Leave the inner w/silver or white or peach to open eyes more.
Leave inner tear ducts plain or add highlight (I prefer light blue, white or peachy pink)

FINAL LOOK:

FULL VIEW OF ALL PRODUCTS USED:

NYX: NO. 122 False Lashes
MAYBELLINE: Pulse Mascara
TWEEZERMAN: Tweezers
LOREAL: Intense Liquid Eyeliner
DUO: Dark Tone glue
RANDOM: Drugstore eyelash curler

BENEFIT: HOOLA BRONZER & HIGH BEAM
MAC: CHEEK & CHEERFUL

NYX: Electric Blue / Black, Silver Glitter / Black
REVLON: Twilight (cream shadow)

REVLON: Soft Nude

NYX: Space & Ocean Frost

My LASH STASH, hehe.

HEY. ITS BEEN A WHILE! D:

Sorry---who ever reads this, lmao. I'm not so active, this blog is so mixed up.
But I felt like doing my EOTD look for today.
I'll be gone May 16-21 with my friend Sarah to a beach near Florida area or w/e. lol
I'm excited for Lost Planet 2!
The L4D2 add on The Passing was awesome, but short.
Been achievement h04ring on Xbox. luls.
Think that's it guys. :3

L8rrr :]

Makeup: MAC Summer Wishlist!

2010-04-07T13:21:00.000-07:00

BEFORE I START, CHECK OUT:

-- www.urbandecay.com is having a 30% OFF Family Sale CODE is valid until the 19th of this month. (April 2010) CODE: 1SFNF

-- www.bf-beauty.com is releasing a Nude Color Palette (date has not been posted but it is advertised on the main page), they also updated with new: Black Cream Eyeliner with Eyeliner Brush for $7.99, They added 20x False Eyelashes (That's 20 pairs) or only $5.99! Many different styles to choose from!

For Gel Liner check this page:

http://www.bf-beauty.com/en/product/item/1428/product_detail.html?javaID=374300b2633ec0f415823001fee584b8

Super Cute Packaging!!

-- www.coastalscents.com Check Main Page, they released a couple new face products!

Now Onto the MAC Wishlist for the Summer!! :D

July is what I'm waiting on! And SAVING UP FOR. :D It's really hard to save when I also looooooove video games so we'll see how this goes. Which also will come down to... using ONLY the makeup I currently own and try to hit the pan. But like, I also like collecting which isn't a good thing going for me, lmao.

So here is my list, I even narrowed down to what I really really want and see myself using, not for collecting but actually wanting to use and actually liking, the descriptions are so amazing. :3

LIST: (LE - Limited Edition)(P - Permanent)(RP - Re Promote)

"To The Beach Collection":

Eyeshadow $14.50 -- Humid (Intense Green) P
I seen this in the website but I haven't tried so maybe when this line is out I will actually give it a try.

Lipstick $14.00 -- Beach Bound (Sheer Frost Pale Peach) LE
I love peach tones! :D

Lipglass $14.00 -- Flurry of Fun (Sheer Sparkly Peach) LE
I haven't been too fond of sticky type of gloss anymore, not since middle school and as I am getting older I just don't feel the need to high glossy looks on my lips and it depends on the color but I am loving the peach and coral snad pinks lately so this will be fun to try out and it will be my first official MAC lipglas ever purchased so I hope lipglasses are great, I see a lot of girls/guys talk of lipglasses so yeah. :D

Lustre Drops $18.50 -- Sun Rushed (Peach Bronze And Gold Pearl) LE

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"Pret A Papier Collection":

Paint Pot $16.50 -- Coral Crepe (Soft Coral) LE

Lipstick $14.00 -- Dressmaker, Dresmaker (Creamy Light Peach Coral) LE

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"Alice + Olivia Collection": This one I'm waiting for the most! :)

Dazzleglass Creme $18.00 -- Sparkilicious (Creamy Pale Pink Whie with Soft Multi-Dimensional Pearlized Pigments) LE, If It's Pink (Hot Pink with Soft Multi-Dimensional Pearlized Pigments) LE

Pigment $19.50 -- Later. (Black with transforming Purple Pearlized Pigments) LE, If It Sparkles (White with transforming Pink Pearlized Pigments) LE

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"In The Groove Collection": Another I am waiting for most. :3

Lipstick $14.00 -- Jazzed (Bright Coral Pink, Cremesheen) LE, Creme de Nude (Pale Muted Peach Beige, Cremesheen) P

Cremesheen Glass $18.00 -- On The Scene (Light Coral Beige) LE

Mineralized Eyeshadow Trio's $19.50 -- Calm Cool & Collected (Satin Deep Green/Pearl Green/Satin Beige) LE, Blue My Mind (Satin Light Blue, Pearly Deep Teal, Satin Black) LE, Love to Love (Satin Beige, Satin Brown, Pearl Bronze) LE

Mineralized Skinfinish $28.00 -- Stereo Rose (Coral with Gold/Bronze Shummer Nuances)(Frost) LE/RP, Petticoat (Pale Rose with Gold and Amber Veining)(Frost) LE/RP

Picture: FULL CREDIT TO: http://www.flickr.com/photos/usarenee/2752873805/ (This is the example of Stereo Rose, I always wondered the craze for it, and I love the color! Unf. I wasn't around to hear of this so def. might grab 2. lol)

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"Superglass Collection":

Superglass $18.00 -- Disco Blend (Light Tan, Pearl) LE, Sweet Tart (Baby Pale Pink, Pearl) LE, Gift Wrap (Lightly Pink Peach, Pearl) LE

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That's pretty much it. I will probably re-think the majority of these though. So far I love all these corals and light colors coming in. :) What are you looking forward to? :D

Also, SPECIAL THANKS to Temptalia for sharing the info. You can check out her website @ www.temptalia.com !!! Go Go Go !!! :D

Makeup Post: Yesterdays FOTD/EOTD.

2010-04-02T17:17:00.001-07:00

It's been a while.
Just haven't been in much of a mood to blog. lol
My next YT video will be a while. It'll prob. be my first tutorial, but haven't decided on when I will do it, I gathered up most of the things I will use and next is pretty much when I'll do it. I don't know.

Twitter: twitter.com/filipinaynerd

Onto picture.

USED:
MAC NC37 SF
MAYBELLINE eye studio gel liner in blackest black/noir
UDPP
UD e/s in roach
Coastal Scents palette for the white shimmer
NYX double pencil in light brown for brows
NYX jumbo pencil in orange w/REVLON's nude attitude for lips to get peachy color
NYX false lash #104

Rant Sunday #2.

2010-03-21T18:52:00.000-07:00

I started a Sunday Rant. So I am writing about this weeks rant for Sunday. Last week's rant is found here: http://iwearcatpaws.blogspot.com/2010/03/rant-sunday-1.html

So onto the rant. :D

MAC lipstick hunting. So far I been wanting corals, pinks, and nude lipsticks. The hunt is over! lol. But I wrote about my first 2 MAC lipsticks ever purchased. I am in love w/Viva Glam Gaga, and Fresh Salmon. But I favor the Gaga most. :)
I bought Benefit's $35 Legally Bronze kit. It was a value set at Sephora.com, I believe it's still for sale, they sold out quick last month or so, so I couldn't pass out on this great great deal! It retails oroginally for $106 I believe! ALL FULL SIZED PRODUCTS! You also get to try out the individual gold pencil and the brown mascara. This is a great set for starters esp. those that want to try the Hoola bronzer and the High beam tint! They originally cost $24-$28 dollars a piece! So it's an amazing steal and too good NOT to pass up on. I'm expecting it by the 23rd in the mail.
I've been wanting a PSP for various reasons but I am going to set aside this 'goal' kind of thing for something else. I'm currently saving for Halo: ODST (yes I am late on this but I just couldn't get myself to buy it till I found out you can participate in the beta for REACH. So I'm def. getting this), also I want to get Star Craftzzz cus Matt wants me to try that out and I been wanting to try some sort of PC game since I haven't in a while now! Another thing I am hoping to get is the add ons for Borderlands. -- Another thing I know that's automatically coming out of my acct. is my Gamefly rent and my PSU account license. If I have anything leftover I am hoping to get more lipsticks from MAC that I listed in my previous blog. lol Or something else at Sephora or MAC. :x
I switched from Marlboro 72s to Smooths again. I know it's bad, and I taste that it's bad, but I've been struggling with 'quitting smoking' for about 2-3 years now. This started to get worse about last year. I'll be dead honest but it probably had to do with my homelife and my bad break up. It calms me, but that isn't a good excuse nor is it acceptable. I should def. try to quit soon.
Nail art. I been wanting to do someone's nails lately. I also wanted to try and buy a huge lot of nail material/items on BF-Beauty.com and try to expand my 'learning' process of 'nail artwork' just something to do and try out. I love the airbrush effect I see on DIY videos on YouTube so I was like.. I wanna try that out.
True Blood Season 1. I got into this last month. This was given to me as a gift last year but I finally got around to watching it. Currently I stopped on Ep. 8 I think, so far it's good.
Scott Westerfeld. Lately, Hazel has been talking about books and I totally forgot I had books to catch up and read that I own that I been neglecting so that is something I should def get back into and finish all of Midnighters and So Yesterday, and get the last book of UGLIES which is the one that explains about all the things in the series. But that is just something to have.
Copics. I drew a lot this past couple months. Can be found here: www.pinaizee.deviantart.com -- I want to get Copic Sketch Markers at www.carpediemstore.com Since they did a major price drop. But they cost over $200, but a while back it was over $350 ish so it's a good deal! So that is something on my wishlist as well.
I want a Mac book. I know I have a good laptop atm. But I just want a Mac Book. Think it's what al we techheads want. lol
FFXIII. I bought a while back, so far I'm on disc 2. It isn't bad at all. I have been playing it for hours on and off.
PSU dead? The game seems to have many rumors and I don't know if I should keep going on with it sometimes. I'm paying $10 a month for a game that barely get's the updates it deserves. So that's something I might consider cancelling one of these days.
Hobbies. Ever feel like sewing? Well I have. lol And I want to make Little Big Planet-esque kind of dolls out of Gaming character's though. Sounds like a plan.
NTS. My Xbox 360 headset sucks ass! I need a new one, or a n UPGRADE. Turtle Beach? Maybe...
Quick Wishlist Recap: Makeup brushes, Halo: ODST, Borderlands add-ons, Makeup storage (some kind of 3-5 or 8-10 drawer mini or tall floor kind of storage drawers!), a PSP, digital camera, or find a cam corder charger on amazon.com for the Everio my dad has that we lost the charger to! It's brand new never used so it's something I should try to get to take better quality pictures and maybe do something w/YouTube. lol :x

That's about it. That was today Sunday rant.

Makeup Collection: MAC Lipsticks.

2010-03-20T14:55:00.000-07:00

I feel guilty. But I gave in. Plus last time when it came out, I missed out on it, and I been really wanting this for about a month since it has been out. If it sold out again I'd probably cry, a little. lol Not really. :P Anywho, my sister went to Dillard's MAC counter and picked up 3 lipsticks. I let her pick the 3rd to have. :) And been wanting to try several lipsticks so my first 2 choices were....

1. Viva Glam Gaga (Lustre)
2. Fresh Salmon (Lustre)

I never owned/tried MAC's lipsticks ever. I was VERY pleased with the color payoff and it's amazing pigmentation!! Sorry, I know this is like my first purchase of lipsticks by MAC so I am overlly excited on these. And def. will make future purchases. I feel a lipstick collection coming a long.. could be a good or bad thing. :D I still love Maybelline's Color Sensational lipsticks too. They are great just as MAC's. But I do notice the difference. "What you pay is what you get sort of ordeal". I hope that I am not hooked but I do want to get a couple more.

Wishlist:

1. Creme d' Nude
2. Hug Me
3. Blankety
4. Victorian
5. Peachstock (I think it's sold out online but at the counter here it isn't YET!)
6. Pink Nouveau
7. Angel
8. Sandy B
9. Girl About Town
10. St Germain

Well, that's about it. :D

Video Game Post: FFXIII

2010-03-14T18:49:00.000-07:00

I'm a little late on this. I decided to finally use my $50 gift card, with that and the extra $40 that my mom randomly gave me just to give I guess, and then the babysitting money that my middle sister gave me, also random money I had in my bag.

Anyway~

My youngest sister picked up my game and walkthrough.

And with her charm she recieved $5 off w/out Edge Card, etc.

See? Cute people have it easy. lmao. Just saying.

Which reminds me of the convo. I had real quick with Matt (www.snakelinksonic.blogspot.com) about how 'girls' have it easy when it comes to 'gaming'. lol Just slap a cutesy picture, maybe show some skin, throw your controllers over your boobies and BAM over 9000!? :D lol.

Anyway, off subject, I just wanted to post something Final Fantasy, speaking of which... I can't wait for the online one coming next year. I'm thinking of switching over to PC gaming if I can invest in a computer by then. :o

el-oh-els.

Makeup Post: FOTD/EOTD

2010-03-12T19:09:00.000-08:00

Don't really do these much but a quick recap on my look today. Since I had some nerdy specs going, I tried not to over do it, using "Stash" by Urban Decay does the work. I used it as base, eyeshadow to make a cut crease to separate from brow bone and lids to give it a sharper crease (basically more asian-y lol). I even used it for eyebrows (which I usually use most of the time or a darker brown e/s but in this case I pretty much used it for brows today). I used it for my lower lash line as well. Topped it w/Maybellined gel liner to give it sharper points in the outer v and the corner of my eyes. I used sin around the brow bone as well. Lipstick is the Maybelline color sensational in Pink Sand, and lashes are by NYX. Cheeks are by NARS Mati Hari and a little of Orgasm to give it a organe pink-ish look but in these pictures it prob doesn't show up.

Art Post: March Artwork.

2010-03-11T22:40:00.000-08:00

www.pinaizee.deviantart.com

Kingdom Hearts / Heartless.
Oil Pastels

OC (Original Character).
"Pocky-sickle"
Line Art - Sakura Micron

Kingdom Hearts / Namine.
Crayola Pencils

OC (Original Character).
"Basketball..."
Pixia Paint

OC (Original Character).
"Where Are You?"
Copic Ciao Markers, Non Photo Blue Lead

OC (Original Character).
"How Deep Is Your Love"
Pixia Paint

Quick Post: Eff You Emotions.

2010-03-11T22:34:00.000-08:00

Ever feel so bored that you sit there for hours on end wondering wtf?

I dunno.

My depression is annoying sometimes.

I deal, get over, but then it comes right back again.

Fuck you emotions. :)

--

So I been making myself busy with art.

Sorry if I'm spamming anyone on Twitter... can always unfollow me... :(

Um..um...so yeah.

Just something to rant about.

/uppercuts depression

Fragrance Review: Flower & Fruit Scents.

2010-03-08T08:29:00.000-08:00

Perfume Review:
Flowers
Fruits
(heart.)

My stash. :]]

So I woke up and looked over to my night stand/drawer. WHERE I KEEP EVERYTHING that I use, from my copics, to telephone, to cigarettes :(, to xbox controller, and then there's my perfumes (which I been wanting to get a tray for or something!? cus they're too cute to hide in the box, which doesn't help for me since I'm a sucker for cute packaging as well :D).

image/google.com

If you're reading this, what are yalls favorite scent is where I'm getting at. I love Victoria's Secret (some of their products, but the super strong flowery stuff I can't stand).

I recently got into Juicy Couture, explains the 2 mini roller balls and the limited edition one that my bf got me for V-Day. :3

image/google.com

Then, I have Marc Jacobs Daisy which I DO like but find it TOO STRONG to wear sometimes, I have to spray in that air then walk into it because I feel like it's too much for me.

Then you have Bath and Body Works! Looooove Rice Flower and Shea, Pearberry, and Tropical Passion Fruit. I always go for these 3 scents when I get a chance or run out of. :]

Going back to Victoria's Secret the one lotion and body splash I like is PINK's Fruity and Bright.

Dior--

top view of packaging.
it's a soft box, simple, white and name imprinted on top.

Notes: I consider it high end cus it's something I wouldn't pay for again unless I really had the money but rather spend it on copics. lololol Or a video game.. :D

the contents inside.
the perfume 3.4 flo oz
& the moisturizer 1.7 flo oz

My mom actually purchased this and only wanted the roller ball and gave me the perfume and lotion!! =] This scent is amazingly 'pure and modern' like it says in the description and I can def. smell that. I smell soft florals and something tangy (in the description it said tangerines). So this perfume def. goes by what the description says.

I recommend all of these.
For those that love fruit and light floral scents. :]

Rant Sunday #1.

2010-03-07T14:06:00.000-08:00

Creating something new for myself for this blog. "Rant Sunday". Kind of like something to bitch about after the week is over with. lmao So, you'll prob. see more of these every Sunday. Btw... I might toss in a weekly comic/manga sort of thing every Sunday as well followed by this. So I might re-edit this later and post the comic, if not next Sunday. (which will be made by me of course. depends on how things go with it).

I've always wanted to get a cat again as a pet. This entire week there is a stray hanging around my house and I feed it daily as if it were my own. That is prob. why it's still hanging around, I love animals, and feel bad for strays. So in general, I'm just a sucker for poor helpless animals that need help! So I hope if anyone out there see's a stray at least help it or something. I dunno about calling Animal Control, it could be the worse possible thing... since they 110% of the time destroy their lives. So BOO to Animal Control. No offense to who ever works there or has family and what not. Just not all for Animal Control. "Oh but they are roaming streets, it's best for them." Kiss my ass! People just need to seriously stop letting their pets make babies if they would take RESPONSIBILITY for their pets. So gto of my face!
Re-vamping things lately, well, I feel like a wannabe interior decorator sometimes. Too much HGTV h04ring. Like, I'm going to make over my bathroom. Tiles, Wallpaper, Paint, Cabinets, Sinks... "It's a man job"... maybe, maybe not... I might have to watch more HGTV before I get started. I just know that I'm sick of the bathroom not looking so awesome like it should be. The people that use the bathroom don't keep things tidy the way I prefer it to be. Then again, it's my parents house, but there is things I don't see "eye to eye" with.
Makeup. In general, it started out to something I barely noticed. Such as brands, colors, and blah blah blah. I saw it as a daily face routine. Simple: Eyeliner, maybe powder or blush, and lip gloss. I've taken to extreme around this age where I find myself caking way more than before. 3 simple things to like a bajillion things. It's insane. I'm not sure it's healthy for me to watch makeup guru's on YouTube sometimes. Makes me want to blow a hole in my wallet when I could have spent it on a video game. If you think about it... am I really going to wear all this makeup. Let alone, I barely go out. Something for me to think about when I decide to click on Sephora.com, or some other makeup site. *sigh*
I been getting sick for about a week, usually when I catch the flu/cold/etc... they don't last LONGER than a week. Is it because I'm getting old? Sometimes I think it's because I'm taking somewhat less care of my body than I used to. I knocked down so many notches of being healthy that I find myself a little repulsive at times. I should def. stop smoking just to throw that in there.
I want to get my damn license. This fear of crowds, crashing, and dying really needs to gtfo. :[
Can I has m04r copics!? $1079 dollars. That's all I'm going to say... I can def. sum up to that amount it less than 4 months but can I really do it? I hope so.
I always wanted to go to college...
I always wanted to "feel something" that I feel missing in my life. One can only hope.
Space. It's all I think about. Planets, Universe, Future things. Why???
There's this "fresh air" that I keep wanting to smell when I was a child that I can't seem to smell anymore. Is the air really that horrible these days??
Snow. I just want to smash my face in a pile of snow. I miss you Alaska. So VERY MUCH!
I've been desperately trying to ignore disturbing thoughts.
Occasionally I will sit and stare out my window and think... "What a great day". Too bad I'm not going outside to enjoy it because I'm that lazy or just really bad at being out going or whatever.
Happiness. I want it.

Picture Post: Flashback Fun.

2010-03-07T13:02:00.000-08:00

Random Pictures from the past.
Post 5, describe what was going on.

Think this was my Junior year and they suprised me by coming to my house after school. lol This was prob. the year me and Arii got more close too. I didn't really get close to many people in high school besides my friend Sarah whom I've known since 5th grade but Arii here was one of mynewest friends. This was like 6 years ago I think. :P

Senior Year. Think I loosened up more in this class than anywhere in high school. Class was pretty small so I had a lot of fun with these friends, So crazy looking back at DJ though, he's like super muscley now, lol. Cus he joined the Army etc. And Johnson dono what happened to him, think he went into the military too. -- But yeah, this was my English TC class, it was such an awesome class cus we prety much did whatever we wanted. lol :D

Btw. Yes, I think I was groping my boob. lmao!

Don't ask.
There is an explanation.
My brother used to live with us my Senior year and I stole his cowboy hat just to be funny, and I really don't know who took this picture. lmao! Yee-haw!? :x
This was before going to a softball game. x_x

Somewhere out in the country.
If I remember correctly I was doing my makeup in front of people here and was giving looks to Nathan about stuff we all did that was considered stupid at the time. Good times. lol

I cutmy hair super short. I dunno why I did, just wanted a change, this was like AFTER graduation too, summer time I think. Ew. e_e

Art Post: Copic Ciao Progression.

2010-03-06T13:34:00.000-08:00

Past couple of days have been very 'busy'.

I made myself busy.

I dunno, I felt like I was wasting lots of energy gaming lately that I decided to chop down the hours I put into gaming. I look back at my Xbox with somewhat withdrawal but I tell myself I'm just going to sit there and waste hours for nothing to updates that never come to PSU and spend hours feeling some sort of anger from dying in Call of Duty, or maybe spending glorious hours kicking ass and can't stop and WON'T STOP cus I'm owning so much. Ehh.

Well, I felt bad.
I bought these markers for over $200 dollars?
And they sit there collecting dust.

Every now and then I would use them but this is actually the first time I sat down these past days and spent more time with them than my own Xbox. I want to get better but to do that I need to practice, practice, practice with these markers. So looking at them isn't going to help... besides... I kind of miss the 'drive' to want to draw. Like, how in high school I was so into drawing that I rather draw than do classwork. I put my grades on the line with drawing... because I had 'passion'... and maybe 'heart'. Where did I hear this from? lol. Anyway --- I just miss 'feeling that' feeling I guess when I drew. It's not all there but... seriously last night was that 'feeling' I get when I'm so into it and couldn't stop because after I set a pen or marker down I still had to keep going. This sounds dirty but whatever. lmfao.

BUT SERIOUSLY GUYS.
I actually 'fell in love again'.
Like it was "reborn".

Jeez, I think I'm getting too mushy with art here but yeah.

So, either above or below I'm going to post a few thing's I have done past couple of days. I'm going to revise a lot of drawings and on the side work on current things I was suppose to do for months. ( *cough* Zelda drawing for MattyPoTatty *cough* ^^;)

WELL NOW.
That about sums up everything, onto the art spamming!

B&W Art: Magical Girl. (Older Ver. of her)

"Strings" -- I can't really tell the story behind this one because in my mind I thought of siblings or people that have a bond over each other?? But I actually took some time coloring it a little.

PlayStation2 Tales of Abyss Mieu.
"Speak No Evil, See No Evil, Hear No Evil".

Kingdom Hearts 3 || Birth by Sleep? Aqua.
Tiny Form. :D
I drew this because Ferdin was twittering about KH & this is for the KH fans. :3 Bwuaha.

2009 Halloween that I never showed but just recently posted on Deviant Art like last night I think.

Weight Post: Start Date.

2010-03-06T13:25:00.000-08:00

Goodbye Filipino Food, for now.
Sadly, I will have to cook it though,
cus I'm the only one that cooks in the household.
Prob. why I gained so much weight too.

So what I am getting at here is that...

I'm going to avoid eating 'whole meat'.
There's several ways to intake some Protein.
I'm going to see if this changes anything in my eating habits.
I usually just eat at night but around that time I'm starving my ass off.
I usually forget to eat most of the day, that is prob.
the reason why I'm at this weight today--
also, I haven't been exercising, it's been roughly half a year
since I went to the gym when Sarah cancelled her subscription,
I did as well.
I regret it.

So, I'm going to try this thing on my own,
with of course exorcise, I own a ton of work out vids
dunno why I never thought of this,
ANYWAY---

So, it'll be hard, I'm going to try for a week or so,
pretty much what people do when they give up things,
"Lent"? I think?
I dunno, doesn't hurt to try something new,
maybe it'll help my weight issues.

NTS: Drink more water. Avoid the rice! lol. :[
AND SAY NO TO ANY KIND OF OIL!

Picture Post: Makeup Collection With Rants & Rambles.

2010-03-04T21:35:00.001-08:00

Hello! Before I start.
EOTD.
Or should I say... FOTD!?
Umm... I haven't seen Alice in Wonderland...
But I was reading an article on Depp.
And the front picture had this "green, red, orange"-look
he had going. So I kind of just used those colors today,
threw in Chesire's purplenessssss and wala!
The look of the day!

So...

Went on base with my parents and realized I have been missing out on the world for a brief moment. But came back and realized I was just being sillehhhh. :D

I really am shocked how the base exchange has developed to THIS. I saw Philosophy, Estee Lauder, Clinique, and other high end makeup brands. Maybe it's been there and I just wasn't into makeup that much and didn't notice it!? I seen Victoria's Secret, and OMG... GameStop! lol I forgot to mention I saw Gamestop in the FOOD COURT area... crazyness!!
I'm thinking I should buy my games on base more often.

So, Clinique. I needed some new face routine because my face isn't so dry, since the cold weather is slowly going away, plus when you have a routine, it get's "old", like how you can't stand using the same "shampoo" or "perfume" in less than half a year. Shit get's old and boring. I dunno if it's just me or if anyone get's it.

I think it was a nice deal.
Costed me $20.00.
This is a 3-step type 2.

I needed a new liquid eyeliner.
Sorry, I couldn't help but take my picture like that.
lmao.
Some new Maybelline brand.
And this costed me like $7.95.
Off base it's like close to $9. I think (cus of taxes, etc.)

Fairly new.
NYX had that sale on glitters around Christmas time.
This was pretty much most of them.
This is just shown because my NYX collection is getting larger and larger.

Sorry, I can't be serious when I take pics.
So... these are all the double pencil liners.
4 of the Jumbo Pecils they offered.
During that $1 Galore Sale.
I think that'll be my last time I order from them --
FOR A WHILE TILL ANOTHER $1 SALE!!!
Lmao, jk. I dunno.
But seriously, a month!? Owell.
I still love NYX and the makeup is pure win.

Video Game Post: Phantasy Star Universe Updates / Wishlist.

2010-03-02T12:23:00.000-08:00

Xbox 360's Phantasy Star Universe

There's an event going on the 5th floor in the Guardians Colony. It's been close to a month. This would be be the 3rd Maximum Attack G. Though, they labeled it MAG+, what's with these + thing's allover PSU anyway? It's been on the majority weapons... it's like they've got so lazy that they slap a + at the end of the name of weapons and everything... can't even come up with a simple name to make it a little more amusing?

More Artwork @ www.pinaizee.deviantart.com

I been playing this for about 2 years now, roughly the second year has gotten boring, tiring, boring, boring!? I still play it in hopes that the game will get better, it does at a certain point but the updating has gotten so bad. When we do get an update boredom starts to come again after a few days. Is it time to turn this game in!? :[ I love SEGA... but this game really is dying,it sucks because I love my characters so much. :P lol... I still will max them all out and keep them.. when the game finally comes to end.I heard PS2 and PC are shutting down this March, RIP to PS2/PC Servers.. =[ I wonder what's going to happen to 360, and how long we're going to last. I'm guessing one more year.Our servers aren't always empty we still get a full universe full.

PSU Weapon/Armor Wishlist ATM:

I've been hunting for these for a while.

Granahodora [B] x2 (Have 1 made, but would like 1 more or 2.) These go for 50+mil in shops, for made 0/10 it ranges 80-90+mil.
Red Line [B] (Hopefully I find this so I can sell my Armas Line 0% neutral for 70mil. to have extra money on 3rd char. -- I have max meseta on 2 char's now. Hehe :D)
Rabbitwand (Bought 2, 5/10 & 0/10, Now I have 1. Would like to get 2-3 more before event is over just to have. :P -- These go for 45+mil atm.)
10/10 Nasuyoteri Bow - I had my chances to buy this many times, I regret not buying it at 81mil. But I hope to catch another in player's shop around that price. I refuse to pay max meseta for 1 measly weapon. lol
Cadianna card - Not yet released but it's on my wishlist. The most updated card.
Spread Needle - This drops rarely, You have to get a rare map too. And that's if you get the rare map and IF the weapon drops.. which is almost 1 out of a million kinda of thing. lol
Edel Bow - This bow is hard to get... you have to do online story mode for it. :/ Sucks so bad! Cus Karen keeps dyin by Megid's. You have to beat under 14min. & keep Karen alive. Blahh. I only tried once, but I'll eventually try again. You decide only 1 out of 3 rare weapons.. and only 1 PER online acct. I decided I wanted the bow. The rifle would seem nice but for some reason I want the bow. lol
Kaiser Viera Crossbow.
Diska Slasher Dagger.
Amore Tip. (I bought the Tippies to this type but sold it like an idiot! ;_;)
Amore Tippies.
Okikudohg TECH-MAG.
Motav Prophecy wand.
Bloody Shower whip.

Random Post: Art, "FOTD", Snow, Etc.

2010-02-24T15:04:00.000-08:00

LOL. Herro! :3

Guess this is a more happy post. I'm not feeling too bad past couple of days. I got my fix today. In no particular order (talking about pictures that I have posted below) -- Fix, I mean, like, I got my NYX Order... weird how I didn't get a tracking invoice sort of email thing? (Btw. I paid all these products with my own money. Just throwing that in there, with all these 'law' stuff? Just to be safe and throw that out there.)

SHUGO CHARA. An anime I've been obsessing over lately. "Magical Girl" (Shojo). Verrrry cute. Highly recommend. You can see the episodes, still on going at... www.crunchyroll.com!

COPICS / PAPERRR / GLOSSY / ART. I been on a roll. This rarely happens... I hope it lasts longer... I been enjoying art more.. I'm still not confident... I only wish that this changes, cus I always think it might be too late. I lost the "dream" but sometimes I want to try again, dunno. Anyhow, I printed a lot of artwork, tested out certain paper. Copic paper (the actual brand) still seems to bleed through and the coloring still looks like... colored pencils to me, only wet!? I dunno. Glossy paper is harder to blend because of the gloss on it. I printed out wallet, postcard and full sizes. lol Just testing it out... if I get maybe popular or better in DeviantArt.. I want to try to sell art, I dono, just something I've always wanted to do but I'm so unorganized and lazy.. DOES NOT MIX WELL when it comes to things like this.

TUMBLR. Random. But I signed up for it. www.pinaizee.tumblr.com

SNOW. It snowed a week ago or so. First time I seen snow since Alaska! Man it was awesome! We were suppose to get more snow last night, but you know how the weatherman/woman/channel is... can't really predict mother nature.. in my opinion or whatever...

FOTD (This was taken couple days ago). I did this smokey eyelook only w/dark violeys/blues... used MAC, REVLON, LOREAL, and iPD.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST. THE BEST, IT MADE MY DAY.

The long wait is finally over... lol. My NYX Cosmetics FINALLY arrived this afternoon. I was pretty happy. No receipt/print out though, strange to me! lol But overall I am just glad it finally arrived. I bought every false lashes in doubles, and the double sided liners, and the 4 jumbo pencils (yellow, pink, orange, red -- wish they had milk and stuff but they had select items only that they advertised), and lastly the little mesh bag, prety huge, kind of reminds me of an Old Navy bag you get when you are buying clothes that you stuff into. lol

That's about it. :D

LOLWTF Post:

2010-02-18T19:19:00.000-08:00

Totally random.

Ty Hazel for all the comments, I read them. lol I just haven't replied yet... I really don't know when I get comments. :/
Fuck the noise at home. Too much "dramatic" people here... omfg. -_-
Periods. 'nuff said
My mouth feels always dry lately.
Is it me or do I have to pee like every hour!?
PSU update this past couple months are poop.
AGAIN, I forgot my 1up.com password. W-T-F & F-M-L!
My NYX order is taking FOREVERRRRRRRRRR.
I love China Glaze's "VII".
Noise... still so much noise (younger sister and her bf having problems) GAWDAMNN the noise.
I bought L4D from Gamefly for $8 dollars. They gave me a $5 reward thing, originally was $12.
Need to re-buy RE5 to play the new add on. Should've never sold mine. :/
Cigarettes.
Fucking noise. Seriously.

Relationships are evil when you are going through first loves and such. I always wondered what it'd be like to finally have a bf when I was younger. I discovered a lot of hardships, differences, heartbreaks along the way. I see love and pain come and go through mine and other's alone. Sometimes I wish people would just find the right one to not go through thing's that hurt so much you could just feel so empty.

I dunno, just random.

I just can't stand "noise" when someone is crying... hurting... it's just too fucked up. Then I start to feel bad for some reason. I can't help certain people through that sort of things but I hope they learn and move on. If not then it wasn't meant to be.

... If someone did something that hurt you so much, it isn't easy to forgive what they did. But something like that might not be like you once had. Would you risk letting it go over something that happened a long time ago. Don't listen to anyone, listen to what you entirely feel...

Rant Post:

2010-02-05T09:31:00.000-08:00

Fuck it.. like I hold back a lot on things I really want to say.. all my life I just HOLD FUCKING BACK... I always put everyone before me... I sacraficed years for them.. I don't know why I'm always treated like this... I think back on my childhood memories and they weren't even that great. Back then my dad was in the AF and my mom was just a Homemaker/Whatever! And it was just me and my half brother. My mom took things out on me and him growing up. When she gave birth to my two younger sisters, she slowly changed her ways of disciplining us.... but I really can't STOP forgetting how bad it was... And then, now I'm older... it makes things so difficult for me right now... I don't know, like, nothing is wrong with me I don't think but... explain... my constant crying, difficult to be social, my tendancies of always worrying if I'm fucking up, having difficulties on trusting... I'm not going to lie, but I am absolutely fucking miserable...

Till... I met a couple people.

Till I met them...

And then there's HIM...

Arguements with the bf is good and bad, but he's something that grasps my heart, tugs it, and I feel okay again...

My mom.

She got onto me today... I'm not a kid, but I feel like a fucking kid living here... my sisters grew up way faster than me... they got their jobs, license... ALL BEFORE ME. I've only worked once, but it was a temp. thing. But otherwise, I don't even know what it's like to do anything at all.... YOU MAY SAY I GOT IT EASY but it isn't EASY AT ALL to fucking live like this... and just feel like... years are wasted and you haven't made anything different... the cycle is such a repeat... it all spins just endlessly.... and all I do is wait..in hopes something or someone would save me from here... I depended on my exes way too much. I gave in too much trust... and guard was down... I was just used... I'm not the happiest person... but I swear to you that I always put you first... I rather the other be happy before I even get a dose of it...

My mom is the main thing that makes me feel this way... I feel like moving out IS going to be MY SECOND CHANCE... but I can't even have that... I'm not even sure who I am anymore or what I'm capable of being who..... I've been told so many talents... but I'm wasting it all... why did "God" bring me here... if I can't even "fulfill" things... if there really is one.. why am I being punished so badly... why do you guys got to make it so difficult for me...

Checklist & NYX Previews.

2010-02-04T07:57:00.000-08:00

NYX New Previews: (1 of 7 new things)

These are the ones I'm excited about.

- Dep. Money in account before tomorrow or today ends.
- Look out for NYX delivery this week. It's been a week! :(
- Buy UD's Alice palette.
- Cancel memberships to: Netflix

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NYX Has new releases. www.nyxcosmetics.com

Art Post: Sample & Link

2010-01-26T10:32:00.001-08:00

www.pinaizee.deviantart.com

www.pinaizee.deviantart.com

Personal Post:

2010-01-13T10:41:00.000-08:00

My closet is clutter.
So I cleaned it out the other day.

I've been very depressed.
I'm not going to lie.

I've been telling myself to stop smoking for months.

I been drawing more.
(When I'm not in the greatest of moods drawing seems to make it better).

I swear I watch HGTV & Roseanne religiously.

Xbox is evil.

I'm moving.

I'll be 24 years old tomorrow.

I'm in a relationship.

Movies To See: Alice in wonderland, Iron Man 2, Toy Story 3

I still feel like something(s) are missing in my life.

L'OREAL Review: Face Creams.

2010-01-02T18:15:00.000-08:00

Long time no write!

I kind of fell into wanting "perfect skin". I've been having slight discoloration in my skins pigmentation. I'm a warm yellow w/hints of pink. Although in photo's I'm white as hell! lol. Sometimes if the evening is around it's like a warm yellow brown?! It's weird.

So I've been experimenting with creams... I feel kind of old when I say this. I'm only 23 and already--wait. I should rephrase that. It's actually a good thing that I am starting and worried around this age... "better to start than later..." or... better than late than sorry or however that goes. lol.

I went to CVS a month ago for lipsticks honestly. lol I'm running out on "Pink Me Up". It's my favorite lipstick this past couple months! Anyway. I tried to find that Mint Masque by Julep at CVS but I found a similar masque called "Mint Masque" by CVS brand. Same thing just cheaper but I couldn't find the Julep. Tried that out and it burned like a mofo but I could tell it was purifying and cleaning deeply through my pores. Now when I wake up I still feel refreshed as ever from last nights face cleaning. My routine has changed a lot and I no longer use that many acne products because my face is clearing up pretty well.

My routine is pretty simple. It's 5 things:

- L'OREAL (This is if I was wearing makeup)
Skin Genesis Pore Minimizing & Makeup remover Gel cleanser.
- St. Ives Oatmeal scrub
- CVS Mint Masque
- Neutrogena Acne Cleanser (I sometimes use this, or skip to: Neutrogena On The Spot)
- Lastly, L'OREAL's Age Perfect Pro Calcium Night Cream (If it's morning time I do all above except the Skin Genesis because I only have makeup on during the evening if I'm not too lazy to do it, otherwise I'm just all natural :D).

Those are my 5 main steps. It works well for me.

But I do want to try another L'OREAL product. It's a whitening cream... this is suppose to help fix discoloration and scars etc. Which I have been working on for almost half a year since I started being more serous about my skin (my face).

So my review is about my last step I do. The L'OREAL Age Perfect Pro Calcium Night Cream.
It's semi-oily. But not too oilybecause it starts to set. I layer once by putting small portions (like tiny dots) from my forhead to the bridge of my nose and my cupids and then a semi larger portion on my cheeks to my chin and parts of my neck. I spread evenly allover w/the tips of my finger so that all the cream is fully covering all the "problem" areas that feel too dry or just needing more hydration (dryness).

Overall I do like this product. The only thing I don't like somewhat is the scent. Kind of reminds me of my mom's PONDS's face cream. It's not that strong but it's a smell I can kind of deal with but at the same time I don't like too much.

The products size is worth the $19 dollars sort of. It's a medium shape... like those Clearasil Pad containers only a little smaller. The hars lid kind of gives a slight illusion you are getting more product but the jar is thickly made so based on how you use it daily every night the product so far has lasted me from last month when I bought it and today and if you forget to do it that's still more product to use. lol Anyway, I'm assuming if you use it every day or every now and then this will last you for a good 4-5 months. If you don't do it daily it's going to last you 6-8 months. For me, I can already tell that how I use this it'll last me a good roughly 5-6 months. I'm going to try out the Whitening cream and probably write about it.

So far my experiences w/this product I rate it a 3 out of 5. Will I buy it again? Maybe. Do I like this product? Yes. But I like to try the whitening cream and then see where it goes from there. I do notice my skin seems more glowy, and the color of my skin seems more even and the darker areas are slowly matching up w/the yellow tones. I do feel that all that dryness on my cheeks have been healing from it and when I wake up my skin is very very soft.

This product helps your skin mature a lot better. On back it will reduce a lot of discoloration, and future saggyness will lessen. There is a lot of Soy Proteins and Calcium Micro spheres that penetrates deep to give a supple and smoother and strengthen skin/look.

Christmas & What's New:

2009-12-25T15:58:00.000-08:00

Christmas is always traditional. Every year I'm expected to do the cooking (or my mom if she decides to do it). After cooking I went back to my room. I heard the family come in and out of the house. The past year now or so... we don't really sit together on the dinner table. I don't care for gifts much because I understand the "economy" or blah blah blah. But I usually end up getting a lot of things and I'm always very thankful. But I'm always thankful that my dad is still around this year. It really hurts a lot when I see him drink. Can't stop him because it's already too late. Can't really stop someone that's been stubborn for YEARS. (Esp. if we did put him in a rehab center like over 3 times. And to think... your in a wheelchair... you'd realise it isn't good for you...)

So Christmas is usually good, usually bad. But I think Christmas is always good... it's only bad sometimes. What I'm trying to say is... I swear every year my mom cries over something. But not in a bad way I guess. I bought my mom something simple. It was a necklace w/matching earrings but I was careful to find something that wasn't something a teen would wear. It had a rose and "pearl like" pendents in it and other little things around it. I can't remember in detail lmao. I just could picture my mom wearing it is all. I should've looked more into jewerly for my mom because I was thinking about how Hazel was selling jewerly and I forgot all about that. Sorry Hazel! lol

Anyway, I got a few things... not sure if I will list them but let's just say it was makeup and other things, clothes (the usual) from my parents & a bunch of randomness... Oh! A Japanese Kimono (lg ver) from Sarah, Hello Kitty I meant to say. lol And a friendship necklace. And Chris (Cho & his fiance Ashley) got me "Saints" necklace (I dono if it's meant to represent Louisiana or football lol?) & a AExpress Card for $50 and etc.

I don't really like to say what I get anymore, I don't want to seem bragging and I've lately been controlling myself from "Splurging"... because I'm in the process of maybe moving... a huge change of plans has happened the past couple of months... it's scary but I just kind of have this feeling... and sometimes you gotta take certain "risks"... go forward... because moving back is only keeping you in the same place where you've always been... nowhere... nothing... lost... it's scary like I said earlier... but I just gotta do it.

Tennessee.

That's the location. I don't want to say much of it. Maybe another time.

Well I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas... spend it with your family.. remember you have family... even if times are rough be thankful they are around despite the many downs... they're still around... be thankful for having a home, and a place to sleep, and eat... there are many others out there that don't even have 1,2, 3 or however many you have now... be safe on New Years...

-- Tina

Christmas Wishlist PART 1: Makeup

2009-12-02T14:13:00.000-08:00

Christmas Wishlist
PART 1: Makeup

Y'ves St. L -- Shimmering Pink lipstick

NARS blush - Orgasm or Super Orgasm

CLINIQUE - Face Kit

Amazing Cosmetics - Concealer

"That time of the month".

2009-12-02T08:34:00.000-08:00

#1 thing about being a girl that annoys me is having "mood swings"? I have to deal with having to fight with myself on whether or not if I'm being too dramatic or if my emotions get out of control to a point where I usually end up breaking down to someone I'm close to most. I get angry, as if they were the red target to the bull. You know what I'm saying?

Anyway.

Yesterday, I knew I was frustrated. But egging me on and on about something doesn't really help. So I take a deep breathe and say "please don't say this and that." Something like that. But they still do it. That irritates me!!! I warned you. So then here comes my anger. Then turn it around, I'm the bad person. So I feel bad. So I beat myself over it. Not only am I mad I'm upset. Then Im just depressed!!

The cycle seems roller coasterish.

So where I'm going with this. I am not on it. Just the moods warn me that it's coming. This is probably the worse part of it.

Emotions = Eats me alive.

Hi.

2009-12-01T10:51:00.000-08:00

I haven't really been writing because there isn't really anything going on with me this past month or two. November came up pretty fast though. Thanksgiving Day was very filling. I ended up getting really sick November and the food wasn't helping either because after I got better, something upsetted my stomach for a week or two.

December is here. I set up the Christmas Tree yesterday. I'm probably going to work on putting lights up on the roof either tomorrow or following day.

My PSU account is under suspension. I'm finally putting about $350 in my bank account to fix my -$56. Too much behind that all to why I got negative but I don't really feel like explaining it, plus the fact that I'm getting lazy and I'm going to end this with... -- this year's Christmas, I think it might be a little depressing in my opinion. People forget it's not about gift's. I wish my family could be a family again.

Change is thought to be good but you also leave behind a lot that actually made sense and meant something. You go out of your way to get what you want most and forget number one priority that was around you since birth. Parents maybe something you avoid a lot growing up... but as you get older you realize there was a reason why they probably spanked you, or scolded you. If you didn't get any of that growing up I see no discipline, nor do I see you respect yourself or the people around you. Therefore you grow up selfishly and things around you probably fall apart quicker if you aren't cautious of yourself.

I don't know where I'm going with this.

I'm just... "tired" is all. VERY TIRED. VERY IMPATIENT.

P.S. I watched Man, Woman, and the wall. Go watch it.

Video Games vs. Relationships.

2009-11-20T11:56:00.000-08:00

We all know that once you finally find that perfect someone that you want to commit yourself to. The number one golden rule is to make sure they have atleast 1 thing in common with you. And this is if you are a "Gamer".

I'm only going to keep this short because lately I've been really annoyed seeing and hearing this.

For example, the big issue was that the maority of 'men', 'boys', 'husbands', 'boyfriends', etc. Were going around saying things like 'I gotta find a way to get my wife out of the house', 'Oh damn my gf is going to be annoying as shit if I don't send her off with money'.

Now, I don't think it is fair, and I really don't want to seem like I'm bashing guys. But it's also the other way around.

I went through this with my ex. But the thing was, we BOTH loved video games. Just, I was probably way more into gaming than him.

Job, Social Life, Relationships are going to be in the way.

So if you're going to even think about jumping into a relationship. Just be prepared that whomever it is. MAKE SURE THEY LIKE GAMING JUST AS MUCH AS YOU DO.

What really bugs the hell out of me is just hearing shit like that.

I don't feel disrepsected. Because that's their life, that's their relationship that they got into. But hearing it, makes me speak up about it.

Just remember who gives you smecs later on and who gives you din din.

That's pretty much it.

This isn't a bash. It's a rant, and this goes towards both female and male gaming community.

Have a nice mother fucking day.

EDIT:

Friday 5 for November 20: Book Titles

Each of this week’s questions is the title (modified, in a couple of cases) of a well-known book. Just, you know, do your best.

What color is your parachute? Yellow. Today feel's pretty sour.
Who moved your cheese? People.
Where’s Waldo? Across another state.
Are you my mother? No.
What’s happening to your body? Slightly irritable and dry.

When part of your identity get's taken away.

2009-11-16T09:14:00.000-08:00

The past few days have been really really frustrating. I'm not as worried as day 1, when I woke up and felt horrified that my tag was recovered onto another console. Only 1 person knew my password and I trust him, and he told me that he noticed I wasn't on his friends list anymore. A couple other people asked why I deleted them and then when some tried to re-add me, they said that my gamertag did not exsist anymore... That's when I knew that my account was hacked and stolen.

1. My bank account is currently suspended - I had an over draft of $51.46, I was going to pay my draft + fee's a couple days ago, but now that this has happened I was going to wait out till I get my tag back just to be safe. I also was thinking of getting a new account, shutting that one down, and paying my draft+fee's. A good thing I am in the negative is that XBL Customer Service said that who ever was on my account did try to make SEVERAL attempts to purchase thing's on my account but would get declined since I was in an overdraft situation.

2. My next problem. The person also figured out my Email linked to my gamertag. And also stole my Yahoo Email account as well. Since it isn't XBL related... the only thing I can do is hope that everything I own that is connected to my Yahoo that I delete. I think they got a hold of my You Tube because it is no longer a user name either. My Twitter is linked to it and my Daily Booth which I don't really care for much (which is why I refrained from updating anymore on those two).

XBL suspended my tag. And I'm waiting out on a couple days. It was Friday when I made that call and now it's Monday... I will probably check in later this afternoon or wait till tomorrow.

This is a nightmare to me. I really didn't think this could happen to me, and I really don't have any clue who and why they would do this to me. The only disturbing thing that has happened to me the night before my account got stolen was someone between ages 15-17 had sent me a hateful message, which probably has nothing to do with it but I remember listening to the voice message and they were pretty angry saying something like "Yo, that aint cool you're moding, what are you like a man not a girl" etc, etc. Bringing up my gender this and that. This person I remember well because I killed him like 7+ the past couple games in a row. I was only using an STG-44 against his Ppsh... at long range and he called it "modding" long range rifle vs. short high rate fired l. machine gun... you be the judge...

Anyway, I was probably getting more hateful comments that night but I was in a private chat the whole entire night. I never modded before so that was a first when I heard that. Does it sound conceited when I say I know I'm not horrible at WaW? Because I know I'm not... when I messaged the kid I said that It's called somewhat skill maybe luck because I know where people hide/camp on the maps so well that I shoot automatically there and get people. Castle, Dome, Asylum, and Upheaval are my maps. MY MAPS. lol I seriously know every spot and sometimes I know too much that I can just shoot right away and get someone. lol

Anyway.... I just wanted to conclude that I didn't imagine that I would be a victim to something "Identity Theft" related. I've seen it happen to a couple of my friends and in fact it happen to someone 2 days before me... and I just didn't think I'd have to go through that.

Note: I'm making a new Email, Password, probably deleting my other accounts I have on the internet. And not save any password on my webpage, I'll just have to type it out even though that can get annoying, but "lazyness will get you nowhere" right? lol. Well... that's pretty much what has been going on. And I hope no one else I know goes through a nightmare like this.

P.S. XBL Customer Service took a whopping 45minutes w/me. I heard over 8 songs & I do have patience. Just crazy how long I was on the phone. But I do what I can to get my shit back... I just hope I do get it back. I put 2 years into my PSU account & I put in a lot of work on my COD WaW level... I was so close to Prestige 9. I wanted to 10 so badly.

P.S.S. Whoever stole my shit didn't know I play a semi-mmo (PSU) and that I had a friend check my partner card list and they saw that my tag was a different name. I won't give it out because I don't want to further any confrontation or attempt in fear they might steal it again, but also they can't do anything right now since XBL suspended it for me. I have to make another call today or tomorrow to see if they furthered the "investigation" for it.

Crosses fingers.

Friday 5 - Nov. 6 Classic

2009-11-06T12:43:00.000-08:00

This week’s 5 honors the World Series. Yes, it is the second set of baseball-themed questions we’ve done in the past couple of years. It’s okay.

Nov. 6 Fall Classics

According to the cliche, if you “spare the rod,” you “spoil the child.” Who in your life was probably spared A Rod while growing up? Only thing comes to mind is my middle sister.
In how many directions this week did you feel you were being Yanked? So many directions... that it's driving me crazy. :(
On whom have you depended for relief this week? My friend Derek.
Who deserves a standing ovation this week (or even a hip-hip Jorge)? Derek, he's been doing so much, so I hope he realizes it.
When did you last have a taste of Champagne? Umm... half a year ago? lol.

Link: http://www.friday5.org/

Edit: Here's my other Friday 5's I didn't post.

Oct. 30th At the Movies

What’s your favorite sports movie? A League of Their Own & Sandlot & The Big Green
What’s your favorite romantic comedy film? Ten Things I Hate About You, Denshu Otaku
What’s your favorite animated Disney movie? The Lion King (First one), The Great Mouse Detective, Dumbo
What’s your favorite non-Disney movie musical? I dont know.
What’s your favorite stranger-in-a-strange-land / fish-out-of-water movie? Battle Royale

Oct. 23rd Resilience

Who in your life seems especially resilient? Me... maybe.
What characteristics would a person need to develop in order to become resilient?Courage
In what areas of your life do you think you’ve been resilient?Everyday
It is often said among educators that a strong indicator of resiliency in children is the presence of a “charismatic adult.” In your own childhood, who was the charismatic adult who inspired you to grow positively?My dad
Can one be tough and resilient at the same time, or are they opposite traits?Either, Or

Oct. 16 Loud

When in the past seven days were you loudest?Probably randomly in XBL party chat, when I randomly make noises to be funny.
In the past seven days, what was loud but not noisy?Music
In the past seven days, what was not especially loud but quite noisy?Trains
In the past seven days, what’s something that was not allowed?I dunno how to answer this.
What are those clouds gathering on your horizon for next week?Seems like "heavy rain" again. :[

Oct. 9 Similes

Who in your life is as blind as a bat?Hmm.. not sure.
Who in your life is as happy as a clam?Only person I know that's super happy lately would be Miss Chincky Taco and Hazel (cus she's getting married soon lol)?? Other than that everyone seems down in the dumps..
Who in your life is as mad as a wet hen?My mom, lol
Who in your life is as stubborn as a mule?I can't say.
Who in your life is as quiet as a mouse?Dono, maybe me sometimes or Chaos (Chris)

Oct. 2 Stories

Which of your stories have you probably told the greatest number of times to the most people?Getting into a fist fight with an ex friend named Amy in front of Walgreens. Lmao
What’s a story someone else often tells about you, much to your chagrin?Same as number 1. lol
What oft-told story from a chapter in your life seems to be remembered differently by different people who were there?Umm probably 5th-middle grade school stories I guess. lol
What are some of the details, without retelling the whole story, of a story you’ve told often but never to your parents?Probably sexual things, kissing, smoking my first cigarettes, and drinking alky. lol Or sneaking out at a friends house w/them w/out parents knowing. lol
What song would be an appropriate soundtrack to the story of your most embarrassing moment?What's a song that has to do with pissing on yourself when your teacher wouldn't let you go to the bathroom so you piss on yourself in front of the classmates... that was 1st grade. lol... :( lmao

Sept. 25 Getting to Know You

What are the titles of the last three books you read all of?Pretties, Specials, Twilight
What are the titles of between three and five magazines you subscribe to or used to subscribe to?Shojo Beat, Teen Vogue, Marie Claire
What’s on your night table? (we figured this one was borderline, since it involves the bedroom, but if the vibe is right and you preface the question with the background story I told above, you could make it work)Either a water bottle or Lipton Green Tea, My ashtray, pack of smooths, lighter, telephone, cellphone, body lotion / spray, sketchbook, art things, xbox 360 controller.
What are the three best things that happened to you in the past seven days?A lot of things.. I can't really think of. Since this was like last months Friday 5. lol
What was your senior yearbook quote, and what would your yearbook quote be this year if there were such a thing?Dont know if I had a quote? And I dontknow. lol

Sept. 18 What Does It Take?

What does it take to get you to grab the mic and sing in a karaoke room?Get me drunk and have my fav. song going. And maybe someone else sings with me. :P
What does it take to get you to give up a whole Saturday to hang out with people you don’t like?Not a lot to get me to hang with people I don't like.
What does it take to get you out of bed without your hitting the snooze button?Not a lot. Sometimes I wake up randomly, or maybe my mom is yelling at me. lol
What does it take to get you to take someone else’s turn at a really unpleasant task at work or home?Not a lot.
What does it take to get you to eat something you really dislike?Umm.. I try anything once, depends. But I'll prob. take a small bite or taste. lol

Sept. 11 Bottles

When did you last drink something out of a glass bottle?A snapple.
Whose energy would you like to bottle for those future listless days?Khloie's lmao.
How many plastic bottles are there in your shower, and what’s in them?There's so many, most are body washes, and shampoo's of all brands, Olay, Pantene, Herbal, Bath and Body Works, Caress... LOTS. lol
Who in your life could be described as lightning in a bottle?Umm.. I dono. Maybe Stephanie. lol
You’re playing Spin-the-Bottle with your sixth-grade classmates. When it’s your turn, to whom do you want the bottle pointing?6th grade? Umm back then if you mean if I were in 6th grade and had to pick I had a crush on this guy named Brandon Ward but if it were now, NO. lol

Link: Friday5.org

v.iiiii - "Scandal"

2009-11-06T12:40:00.001-08:00

Layout based on a quote.
“Scandal is gossip made tedious by morality”

There are many faces on a person's face.
Good or Bad.
That's my opinion.

Having a conversation with a friend made me want to re-do my layout.
lols.

Update.

2009-11-03T15:22:00.000-08:00

Okay, so I haven't been writing much the past month now. So much is going on, too much to say but I wanted to just jot a couple thing's down before I get back to Call of Duty. =P

A friend came in town, he stayed from Nov 23 to Oct 1st.

I been feeling very indifferent at the same time, I'm a little sad, confused, and just very unsure.

I want to do so much but I'm only one person.

Keeping in mind... from what someone told me... that I wasn't put here to waste time on earth... but at the same time I feel the need to want to please everyone. I forget about myself and that is something that's bad about myself that I wish I could change. I'm used to saying yes and never saying no. I want to do thing's. That's all I want to say... but at the same time I'm heading that direction but I feel indifferent.

I don't understand my feeling's and my heart seems to go a direction that I'm afraid it might be a bad decision, I did a lot of thing's this past month, I don't really regret it much but I wish I used my head more than my (you know).

All I know is that ... I'm stuck. Again, I feel stuck more than ever. All I do is upset people that come across me, and sometimes I wish I was just left alone. Why do you guys have to like me? What do you see in me? Why do you keep calling me beautiful... why do I feel so smothered most of the time. Why do I feel like... I'm doing things you guys want... why do I feel like ... I'm stuck in the middle. Back and Forth it's all I'm doing but I can never have the time to stop and take a minute of what I really want.

It wasn't this difficult when I was with my ex. It didn't hurt this much, and ever though he cheated on me... I'm hurting that I'm in a situation where these two want me to choose... I don't want to hurt these two people... sometimes I feel rushed... sometimes I just want to be like fuck off sometimes...

Didn't want this entry to be horrible but it's a rant and I had to let it out.. and if you guys end up reading this. This is how I feel.... I want to go to school yeah. I want to work yeah... I want to maybe fall in love but not like this.. where I feel forced into it... I feel forced into it... can you guys hear me.. ?

Art Post & Misc.: Time.

2009-10-15T19:52:00.001-07:00

FALL ... WINTER ...

The time is passing too fast this year. And again I feel somewhat nostalgic... winter is near and fall is sinking in. I'll start to remember "some things" long trips to the other city, shopping with him, and long conversations as we head to starbucks and stop by "our favorite spot", the usual bookstore and we always catch it before it closes and the worker that worked there knew us well... every year that was "our thing". Every time 11 o'clock hits and I happen to pass up that place it kind of makes me teary. I haven't set foot in that place for a long time now. But I hope to go back in there (being I am behind on manga collecting -- altho I kind of stopped anyway but it'd be great to see what's new).

On a lighter note.. I been drawing more and more. Guess cus it's Halloween nearing, and Christmas it puts me in that mood to submit art for those occasions. :D So...

I also dyed my hair darker again, guess the blonde just, I wasn't feeling it. So it's a dark reddish burgundy now. I seem to like this color alot because I usually dye my hair this color after I do a blonde color. Before I go back to black. lmao

I keep procrastinating about the New Orleans trip I was going to write about, but I'll save it for another time. I also have pictures but currently my phone is disconnected.. which is another thing I'll save and write about later also. For now... that's pretty much it. No new makeup lately, been trying not to buy anything at all. Too much things coming. :P

P.S. I want to see Paranormal Activity, the Amelia Earhart movie. And I watched old school movies w/Derek on Netflix.. Poison Ivy. Lmao.

Wishlist: Copic sketch markers, canvas', new sketchbook for next year, pigment pens, MAC mineral eyeshadow (cinderfella and the blue one, forgot name) and lip erase :( and Flake Away for legs after shaving. :D :D buwahhahaa and these cute mukluks I saw @ Target. :D

Personal Post: Trip to New Orleans.

2009-10-12T15:37:00.000-07:00

Trip overall was horrible.

Anyway... I'll write about it all another time with pictures.

Ebay: Selling Manga Sets.

2009-10-07T16:32:00.001-07:00

Here is my advertisement on Ebay. What do you guys think? I'm so new to selling on Ebay though. Anyway, I will probably start selling it while on my trip south of here and on the way back I will take care of shipping it by then... *sigh All this for SOMETHING...I'll talk about that later. Anyway. Any tips before I do this, please comment!

The advertisement:

Complete Manga Set:
Crossroad

Volume(s): 1-7

Retail Value: $10.99 each, Total: $76.93 not including tax.

Condition: Good & Excellent

Smoke Free Home: No

Note: I collected these sets since they were first released. I'm a huge manga fan but have grown to stop collecting. This set has barely any wares (See pictures for proof of conditions). I keep them organized with several other sets of manga I own and plan to sell. If you are interested in any other sets that you see by me, please message me personally and I can arrange combined shipping.

PLEASE READ:

If you buy now I plan on adding 4 Go!Comi brand manga's that also retail $10.99 each.

Manga Titles:

Night of the Beasts Volume 1

Night of the Neasts Volume 2

The Devil Within Volume 1

Black Sun Silver Moon Volume 1

Retail Total: $43.96
FOR FREE

This is a total of $120.89 worth of manga I'm selling.

Makeup Post: Using Green Eyeshadows.

2009-10-06T20:00:00.001-07:00

G R E E N E Y E S H A D O W

Using Green eyeshadows.
And black eyeliner.
False lashes.
Pink blush & pink lipstick. :D

I reserved Call of Duty MW2 Hardened Edition. I don't know if I wanted the Prestige Edition. But I was happy with what I got, plus if I think about it, it would be a great collecting item but I usually collect the Limited/Special Edition types. Anyway, after that I went to CVS, Walgreens, etc. And spotted Fix & Prime by Rimmel for a primer foundation and a Stay Matte in Soft Beige (Finally found my shade btw!) foundation. They had a Buy1Get1FREE ordeal. Anywaysssss... that's pretty much it.

Very excited for my trip to New Orleans and Baton Rouge w/Kye and Sarah.

Blog Post @ MySpace

VLOG O18 - Face Routine & Trip to Baton Rouge Etc.

Zelda, Trip to Dallas or New Orleans & Call of Duty!

2009-09-28T17:30:00.000-07:00

Time to rant. And sorry it's been a while since I really wrote something decent. I don't want to come off depressing but that's life! lol. So onto what is going on with me...

Busy end of September for me. October I will be leaving on the 8th to the 11th. Packing is something I don't like doing because if I could I'd pack my entire room with me. I'll miss my babies. Xbox. HEART HEART lololols. I'd take it but I don't know if I feel like undoing all those wires behind my box then having to re-put them back on my tv etcetc. I did that a lot when I was living with my ex and it was a bitch to do, I literally did it everyday because I love my xbox too much. Haha
So yeah, my CoD WaW is now over 30,000 kills and my deaths are around 20,000. My ratio is 1.40 and my streak is 23. I hope by the time I am 10th prestige I can get over 30 streak. CoD 4 I'm not as good but I play decent. I love WaW more because I love "World War" kind of games so that is probably why I enjoy it more and the weapons are okay to me. Except MP40 is so cheap. And sometimes the connection can be a little off and when you have me and 2 other people rifling this MP40 guy in distance and he's mowing us down... that is just ridiculous. Lately the game itself has been very laggy and off for some reason some guys reset and some people's weapons just seemed modded (the controller)- kill cam proves that something is weird half the time. Whats the point in cheating, whats the fun in that? Just in my opinion about half of the people on WaW just cheat, like set up your own match and cheat don't bring it in the public, some people actually want to play and not have to deal with shit like that. I've been quitting out of games when it's like that. Why should I waste my gameplay w/cheaters? It's not even fun.

Zelda. I'm working on the art collab w/SnakeLinkSonic. It's about roughly 7% because I am re-doing it and sketching it out w/a non photo pencil then inking it later. Pictures will be posted soon.

New Orleans. Not sure what I'm going to do here and Baton Rouge with a few friends, me and Kye and Sarah are going there just to get out of Bossier City for a couple days so I will prob. write about this later.

For now that's all I had to say. Laterrrr! :D

MoTD - Chesire Cat! =^ - ^=

2009-09-24T01:04:00.001-07:00

Makeup of The Day

M e 0 w !

:D Hello everyone.

Today I did a "Cheshire Cat" theme.

Purple & Hot pink go so well w/black.

:D

Clipped my hair back some. :D
The red is disappearing in my hair though. :[ lol

Weee ! :D :D

USED:
Maybelline face products
UDPP
E.L.F. brow tamer
MAC Cheek & Cheerful blush
E.L.F. Illuminance & Bronzer
Maybelline "Pink me up" lipstick 045
Red Cherry lashes #62
Red Cherry low lashes #104
MAC e/s Parfait Amor
CS e/s white-ish w/blue reflects as highlight
(Far left e/s 1st on 2nd row)
For the hot pink part I used CS too.
MAC e/s pigment Violet (from Hazel! :D)

w0074g3. L8rrrr! ;D

Photo Post: The Many Faces of Tina Parks 2000-2009

2009-09-23T16:20:00.000-07:00

I went through phases.
Many Looks.
But as I got older I noticed that I kind of look the same,
although I seemed to have matured more,
soft-subtle-toned down a little w/the makeup.
Sometimes I go dramatic but it was just for fun.
Although I am still a tomboy at heart. :D

Picture Link: http://pinaizee.deviantart.com/art/2000-2009ManyFacesofTina-138022270
Note: If you go there you can actually download it and it will expand.

Personal Post: The knot in my throat.

2009-09-23T14:00:00.000-07:00

I feel like everytime I start this out, I will most likely delete it. But here I am. I am going to rant starting now...

I woke up feeling like shit today. My dad woke me up several times early this morning. Keep in mind that I tend to wake up in the afternoon, what a way to waste good parts of the days right? Yeah. I don't really have Insomnia but I have difficulty making myself sleep. I do not believe in medicine. I believe that it is my fault that I've become like this. Video games. I've been playing for many years. I use it as my escape from reality. I use it to cope with a lot of stress and a lot of problems I face on the daily with my family.

So I'm going to say in raw detail. Be truthful. So don't even feel sorry for me. I only hope when I do end up looking back at this I will probably laugh it off or feel successful because "I made it" or "God, I went through so much shit... I'm doing a lot better now." But reading back in old entries I posted in the late 2000's of my young teenage years... NOTHING and when I say nothing... ABSOLUTELY nothing has not even changed.

For one, I am still not in college, nor do I work, and nor do I have my license yet.

WHY, WHY, AND WHY? Do you ask.

I'm 23 years old. I'm about to be 24. My life hasn't changed because I particularly didn't change it's course. I am very lazy, and I have no enthusiasm whatsoever. I'm a very shy person, and it's become so ridiculous that I hide myself from communication with other people or having to do anything social. Just once I always wanted to be at least a little out going but when I attempt it... there my mom seems to control it.

I grew up depending on other people. I grew up depending on my parents, my ex boyfriend who left me 7 months ago.

I'd like to break it all down what has happened to me since 2000 but that would be a long book pretty much.

So here is what I am going to do, for those that even care what occurred in my previous childhood life. Go to: www.deadjournal.com/users/pinaizee

That is my entire life when I was going through so much, and to this day I still am.

There is this guy however that wants to change thing's for me to make it better, I been hesitant but I feel that option might save me... even if I make certain sacrafices I just hope the people that are around me that actually cared and helped me will understand that I've ben miserable for a very long time. And I've thought of suicide SO MANY times. I thought of so many horrible things... if this ONE thing here can save me... then I might be selfish... to take up on the offer... but if it's to at least once slight f happiness that I've always wanted... I will go for it... I'm only sorry if doing this, I will leave behind my family.. but from the way I see it, they've already left me behind.

I feel washed up.
I feel used in so many ways.
I don't feel like nobody loves me.
I don't even feel like this is a family.
I really DISLIKE my mom, and I feel bad for saying that....
But seriously seriously... if you seen what she did to me, what she put me through my entire life... how she treats me like shit... you'd get why I've been like this.
But you don't.
And if you do and see it and think it's wrong too.. then yeah.

I live a very unhealthy life.
I'm so depressed and I stay up multiple nights,
crying, smoking through packs, and laying there thinking...
"What do I have to cook tomorrow"
Because she'll yell at me if I don't..
when I do she won't eat it.
So what is the point in cooking, what is the point in wasting food...
I'm tired of it.. I know it's my family and all but I feel like a prisoner...
I feel very used and I've been hurting allover. Emotionally, Physically.
I'm just so tired of it and I'm sick of just letting my life waste away... I really want to do something for myself for once before it's too late.

I'll be 24 by Jan. 14th.. and I def. don't want to look back another year, or two or so... and be writing about this again... Looking back at my journal around 2000-2008. Is a very rude awakening that those last 9-10 years od my life... I'm still treated so horribly.

The person I've become
when all I wanted was to be able to do things
everyone is growing up faster than me
doing things that I can't even do
because I'm still in this hole
that my mom won't let me out of...

Picture Post: New Hair Cuttage.

2009-09-19T23:28:00.001-07:00

NEW HAIR & COLOR.

PICTURES GALORE.

MORE @ YOUTUBE.

Makeup Post: Cute Gifts & Eyelash Collection.

2009-09-16T14:53:00.000-07:00

I wasn't expecting this...

BUTOMGGGGLOL =]

Packages make me smile. :D But I don't want to get off subject here but I wasn't having a good week at all! I was going to blog about it but I always look back at my blog and feel stupid afterwards so I end up deleting it. I might just keep that on my LiveJournal or Xanga for the personal stuff. It gives me the option to keep it private also.. since I don't understand BlogSpot still. Is there any privacy options for a certain entry? That's what I'm trying to look for on here. lol.

Anyway! I was heading to the kitchen, nobody told me I had 2 packages waiting but I looked over and I remembered I ordered false eyelashes from www.iheartcherry.com when they had Labor Day sales and sold those lashes for like .99 cents a piece! (But I was told 2 was refunded because they ran out). I think it was angeec on YouTube that was advertising it on her YouTube. I never tried these eyelashes out before so I was pretty excited that they came in so fast! Because just 2 days ago I finally got invoice that it was shipped and it got here in 3 days! What's weird is that I think www.beautyshopoc.com, www.iheartcherry.com, and there was one more site that is owned by the same person.. and their name is Tuan or something. Because I noticed the address was the same on my last package when I got the Caribbean Collection a while ago. lol

Pictured: These are all the lashes I bought total. I had 10 total, originally I ordered 12 but they refunded $1.98 back for the 2 that they ran out on. lol I love the first on top, and the 4th on top, the last 2 on each row (they are the bottom lashes) and also the 2nd, 3rd, 4th bottom ones! They are so BIG!!! no sexual. lmao.

Pictured: Better view above. With the sites name on right. www.iheartcherry.com

Note:
www.iheartcherry.com (Sells individually, variety, and DUO glue)
www.beautyshopoc.com (Sells individually, bulks like 12pks. but 1 type only, not mixed -- also they sell DUO glue and NYX products, they were known for being cheaper than original NYX site and CherryCulture. But CherryCulture recently knocked down prices and are about 40-50cents to a dollar cheaper than them now.)

Drew this before I went to bed.
"If it were that easy...
I'd fly as far as these wings would take me.
Just to see you again..."
I made that up but I feel like it's similar to something I seen or heard.
Who knows. lol
Sadness is actually a great emotion to me.
When I'm not in a happy mood, emotion seems to jot down thing's I cannot speak.
Emotion is what we need.
It expresses a lot.
It shows character.
It also shows "heart".

Medium: Non Photo Blue Lead Pencil / BIC Cristal Ball Point Pen in black. (LOVE THESE THINGS! lol)

Yesterday I went to BIG LOTS which I never been in before but I was mainly going there to find E.L.F. products because it was rumored to be sold there. And t was true, but the makeup selection was so empty and I saw a box full of makeup that didn't seem to be on display so I didn't bother digging in there. Lmao. I saw this REVLON cream palette... reminded me when I searched for 3 days "Twilight" not because of it's name haha, but also it was the most talked about, reviewed and used allover youtube as a base besides UDPP & TooFaced & Other eyelid bases. Anyway, I thought it was awesome that Mascara was a bonus and it was only $4.00! I paid like $5.00+ for the Twilight at Walmart couple months ago. So I had to get it. Plus they're all purples! I think it's called "Orchid" something.

L.A. Colors. I remember this brand because my mom actually works at Dollar Tree. lol And I'm not too fond of dollar brand makeup but I remember this because she buys it all the time. Nail Polishes and mostly the eyeliners or lipsticks... the lipsticks are so highly perfumed that I can't stand it but they make awesome colors. So I seen the neon palette somewhere allover YouTube so I went ahead and bought it. At cherryculture it retails about $3.00 or so, with shipping and tax, it's almost $5.00. I bought that at Dollar General for $1.50 each. :D

Went to Sally's Beauty Supply Store also and picked up some platnium blonde dye, and Kaleidoscope bleach (Already had a 30-40 volume) so went to Sarah's after that and put thick streaks (Friday I'm doing it again to get the orange out). -- Spotted ORLY & China Glaze and get this pretty matte baby blue color in Periwinkle.. I'm not a huge nail polish type of girl but as soon as I saw it I was like... I want it. :D hahaha! So I got it and used the white I bought from the Dollar store. lolololol. (Read below about white nail polish & other makeup finds)

I also saw the L.A. color white nail polish thing for $1.00! It retails for about $3-4 online and other stores. Crazyness. I should've grabbed the other 3 whites. But I just feel like I'd be greedy, plus I don't need to buy lots of thing's like that. Lmao.

That night Kye & Sarah painted my nails. Haha =]

The other hand had "attempts" of bows that Kye, Sarah and myself tried to do but I can't find picture. Check right links if it's posted on my TwitPic. These I did on my own while in car, the bumpy drive made it easier to make the zebra stripes messy. haha. :P

Went to MICHEALS art supply store.. and I saw this on the way out. I just had so many idea's. It kind of inspired me to re-do my room lol. I kind of want a halloween, nightmare before christmas look in my room now. Haha. I love Halloween! And it's like daysssssssss away! :3

This place also reminded me of Hazel. lmao. I saw so many beads & crafts & jewerly stuff on sale and I noticed she was having trouble finding certain stuff. (Do you have a Micheals where you live? Yes I'm asking you, haha, I know you are one of the few that actually read this so I'm just going to talk directly like this, lmao!) But yeah.. saw like 4-5 aisles of BEADS, CRYSTALS, EETCCC. LOL.

Sorry no makeup. And I look like a dinosaur. LMAO! Jk. But yeah, anyway, the streaks aren't showing up well in this lighting but it's actually slightly blonde on top in lighting but orange in middle-ish. We're going to continue the rest Friday to let my hair collect some oil and heal up again from those bleaches we did. I don't want my hair to fry! Or get noodley.. lol. :o

Again... Halloween! I'm just too excited for Halloween. It's not even funny! :D I keep doodling Halloween stuff allover my sketchbooks and stuff.

Lastly... the best part of my day. GIFT from Derek & Hazel. :D
Thank you sososososososoooo much you guys! I heart you! :D

Derek knew I wanted one of these palette's for a while and found out Hazel was selling it and contacted her and he bought it for me. Hazel was superrrrrrr dupperrrr (super duper. lol) niiiice and awesome and I can't even describe how happy and excited I was to get a bunch of samples! The pigment samples to me was alot! Like she said earlier I barely dabbed my finger and the pigments were so high in color, I don't know the name of the copperish tone. Well I do but I'll look back at it later but that was probably my most fav. color. It's like copperish and some gold reflected in it or something!

And the candy was cute. I couldn't read any but it was so cute that I didn't want to eat it, or ruin the cute packaging. I have a thing for packaging. Tends to ruin thing's for me because I also want to eat it! Lmao! Haha

The E.L.F. blush was awesome too! I remember she told me about it and other people telling me well not telling me but saying in YouTube reviews how it's supposedly "dupe" of NARS Orgasm, which reminds me I want to try NARS one of these days! I'm slowly getting into the MAC thing and I'd like to finish my 15x palette. I made a goal. And I'm only doing it slowly and not going crazy because I'm saving for Xbox games, lol. But 2 eyeshadow refill pans a month! I don't know what next 2 colors I should get.. but I just thought of something, how about colors based on the month/holiday. Since October is coming. I might get Carbon or Black Tied for black, and the Orange one for like Fall-ish? Any suggestions? Comment! :D

I don't know why the picture is tiny lmao. But this is just a quick picture of the colors in the 88 shimmer palette.

THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN TO
HAZEL & DEREK
YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME
& THIS REALLY MADE MY DAY !!
& MADE ME SMILE, SMILE, SMILE
=]
heart . heart . heart

Makeup Post & MOTD: Newb to MAC.

2009-09-14T20:36:00.000-07:00

Hello cute little black box.

What do you have instored for me? I love the box! Haha. Black packaging is awesome.. I thought about Nightmare Before Christmas. Which reminds me... HALLOWEEN & CHRISTMAS is just around the corner, that's also SALES, SALES, SALES = MAKEUP, MAKEUP, VIDEO GAMES, ETC. :3 So excited!!!

As promised. Shipping was awesome. So nothing to be complaining. But complimenting. :] They packed it so nicely. Black tissue paper and bubble wrapping. This is my first MAC makeup ever besides foundation (2 total), other than that n000b to everything else! :D

Everyone is doing it. MAC palette x15. 2 e/s in Knight Divine and Parfait Amor, blush in Cheek & Cheerful. =] Nothing too crazy, since I'm new I went for a grey and purple (since I love purple, blacks, and green e/s most), I want Improvise and Style Demon for mineralize blush next time. As for eyeshadows I want either Stars & Rockets, Eletric Eel, Nehru, and Carbon black and the almighty... Rice Paper that I see guru's use all the time! =P

Swatched on my pale ass hand. lol Not so dark. Didn't use any base or sort so what you see is a tiny single stroked swatch off my finger tips. No sexual. Lmao. (I'm going to get alot of guys saying "no sexual", inside joke. We do it all the time. I guess you have to be perverted to get it. lols)

MAKE UP OF THE DAY / MoTD

My forhead looks shiney. Rofl. It's kind of dark so I'm using my desk lamp. ;_;

I love REVLON's Pink me up lipstick. If your lip is slightly darker. You might have to base it first to get it lighter. I had to use a cover girl lipstick. Unknown shade but it was kind of light pink/white and then I topped it w/the Revlon lipstick.

So what did you use?

Good Question.

NYX - I dream of St. Thomas palette in The Caribbean Collection
UDPP
Maybelline - All Minerals: Foundation, Powder, Concealer (Light, Sand, Sand)
Revlon - Pink me up lipstick
CG - light white/pink lip palette as lip base
iPD - False eyelashes x2 on each eye (Korean brand)
LOREAL - Felt tip liner in Carbon
NYX - Hot Yellow for under eye glitter
E.L.F. - Illuminance highlighter for upper cheek, under eye
E.L.F. - black eyeliner for eyebrow color fill in
E.L.F. - All brushes
MANLY - random pink for blush

Makeup & Food Post: Maybelline, WNW, ORLY & Laga.

2009-09-12T15:52:00.000-07:00

K u m u s t a =P

It's been a while! So last night I was originally going to pick up a pint of orange juice with Sarah because she got some vodka and I couldn't help but go to the makeup section and I forgot to look at a few things in the REVLON section :( The matte foundation for dry skin, Julep Masque, ORLY nail polishes in matter colors (I did grab an ORLY nailpolish but realized as we were driving off it was shimmery base. ;_;)

Other than that! I spotted Wet n'Wild's section, I haven't used their product since middle school days. I looooved their eyeliners because they had some sort of soft-creamish feel when put on lids. So that was my MUST HAVE eyeliner waaay back. lol So I saw this 10 pc. nail polish set by them w/a free nail file in their comes in a cute little plastic case but yeah. Pictures all below what I bought & that was pretty much it, also LoTD pictured below as well!

Also! I cooked 2 things today Sinigang & Laga. Although the Laga has more of my own customization, I really like making my own style because it's usually a little better for some reason, plus I love to cook if I'm not forced to. See pictures below! Well I'm off to play some Call of Duty. Laterrrr! :3

- Wet n' Wild 10 pc. nailpolish set.
- Maybelline's lipstick sensational in Pink me up
- ORLY nail polish in Sugar plum
- Orange juice (not pictured) lol

- Jasmine rice
- Laga: Filipino long green beans, tomato, onion, salt, whole garlic chopped finely
Served over rice. =]

- Face: All Maybelline Minerals - Liq. Foundation, Powder, Concealer, OLAY - wrinkle/puffy eyes gel, Neutrogena - Acne Control Lotion, Clean & Clear Nights moisturizer, UDPP on lids.
- Cheeks: All E.L.F. Candid Coral blush, Illuminance highlighter
- Lips: REVLON - Nude Attitude lipstick, NYX - Sugar Pie gloss, Carmex cherry flavored
- Eyes: iPD (Korean brand) false eyelashes x2 (doubled), LOREAL shimmer pigments in Orb & Raisin' Cane, Maybelline Pulse Vibration Mascara, LOREAL felt tip eyeliner in black, E.L.F. brow liner.

Music Post: Our Little Box Of Memories.

2009-09-08T23:47:00.000-07:00

So I don't do this often.
Music is entirely/souly a big thing in my life.
I thought I should share this.
It's embarrassing because I usually put my writing on paper.
But this is very emotional for me because I always tear up
singing this to myself.
I did this over night and kept it like it is since
it was how I was feeling.
Love is beautiful to me.
Love is also cruel to me. lol

Song Writing by Tina Parks (Me)
Song Title: Our Little Box Of Memories.

You came to me at open arms
Intertwined I was lost
in your love

You came to me with warm smiles
Kept my head spinning
in your eyes

But you've forgotten
how I was lost in a trance
of your love... love love
keeps me stolen

Chorus:
I have fallen
before you could have ever known
With every word I've taken
every single note I've kept
in our little box of memories

Past our times
through gentles eyes
I have fallen
in your arms...

But...who's to say
that our love will ever stay
because your all that I've
given all to your love...

I have fallen
before you could have ever known
With every word I've taken
every single note I've kept
in our little box of memories

[I still keep holding on...]

So...
Stay...with me...
love is beautiful
and take me as I am
when I have fallen
into your arms...
because this
single
word
I've said
and spoke
and cried
upon your cheek...
You've swept me
off my feet...

Chorus:
I have fallen
before you could have ever known
With every word I've taken
every single note I've kept
in our little box of memories

Past our times
through gentle eyes
I have fallen
in your arms...

But...who's to say
that our love will ever stay
because your all that I've
given all to your love...

I have fallen
before you could have ever known
With every word I've taken
every single note I've kept
in our little box of memories

I might get back into my piano keyboard 'skills' (If I had any, haha)
And try to make something out of this in the future.
But I'm kind of lazy and I wish I had more "enthusiasm"
& yeah. It'll prob. be one of those things I don't end up doing
like with a lot of things. But you'll probably see more of these
kinds of writing in the future. =]

Blog Post: When the past sneaks up on you.

2009-09-08T21:44:00.001-07:00

Just making a quick post since it's been a while.
My ex recently came in contact with me.
Pretty much said a lot of things I shouldn't have heard.
I'm hurt, and pist all at once.

But you know.
Those 7 months I've been hurting...
Hearing all that...
It was worth it.

The truth hurts.
But the truth has made me stronger.

I'll always have love for him.
I'll always have this sense of care for him.
But I refuse to let him take away what I have left.

I'm saving it for someone else
that will cherish it more than he did.

He tells me... he didn't realize what he had.
I realized what I had.
Just sucks when 2 people can't see eye to eye.

Lesson learned.
I'm moving the fuck on.

Just because I wasn't as pretty or
because I wasn't 'skinny'.
(It just hurts alot that you look for those things)

Just shows that a person with heart
was something really needed in a relationship.

And now look at you,
your falling apart,
and dare cry in my face
and expect open arms.

I forgive you...
but I won't forget it...

So I hope things turn out for the best for you.

I'd like to live my life stress free.
I don't want a confusing relationship.
I want to love hard.
And cry because I am IN LOVE.
And not cry because YOU DON'T LOVE ME.

NON-PERSONAL POST / UPDATE >>
Got a new 'collection / haul' coming.
I ordered Red Cherry Lashes
& some MAC cosmetics (my first time!)
I'm looking forward to it.

LoTD >>

I used mostly Beauties Factory e/s(s)
UDPP
Loreal felt tip liner in Carbon black
iDP False eyelashes (Korean brand)
Maybelline for face products
Revlon lipstick in Nude atittude

Note: I kind of want to thin my eyebrows more
w/some angle/arch, should I do it?
I grown them out alot.
Only thing I do is use this E.L.F. eyebrow fill in thing.

Art Post: Going back to "hands on" art.

2009-09-04T17:20:00.000-07:00

DiGGiNG UP THE PAST.

I don't know where I'm going with this but I was sitting on my bed and something came to my head. I wanted to paint. I remember having a box somewhere and looked underneath my bed and there it was, this medium sized box.. FILLED with all sorts of paints and brushes and this color wheel thing I totally forgot about. A water bottle was beside me and a glass for display was by it, so I poured my water in there and just had this crazy urge to paint. So picture above is what all I found. I love finding old stuff and just feeling like it's new to me again, lol. Do you guys ever get that? Finding something old that you forgot about and just get excited over it!

We'll see how this goes. I'll be painting tonight and working on a few other things that I'm behind on. My art page is about to hit 11k views. (finally.) Although I don't deserve it because at one point, almost a year I quit drawing, I quit art in general for a few reasons... but I haven't given up entirely. I've been feeling bad about it. Even if I am wishy washy with it. I consider it a hobby, sure I wouldn't mind pursuing it as something greater but... I worry I will lose "my love for art" if I use it as a "job". Does that make any sense? I talked to a friend of mine and she said her sister was a graphic artist and actually HATED working for it. It's strange but owell.

S'why I'm so skeptic and unsure of alot of things... so many things I can do, but I'm still remaining stuck. And going nowhere! But someday! :]

UPDATE // WHICH WAS BETTER?

Tools: Plain Canvas, Oil/Acrylic Paints, Black Chalk, My hands! lololol

Friday 5: September 4, 2009.

2009-09-04T01:57:00.000-07:00

In what way this week were you reckless? I broke over 2 e/s this week. :[ I've been clumsy.
In what way this week were you shameless? I've been ignoring things I guess.
In what way this week were you fearless? I've been wearing certain clothes that I felt too embarrassed to wear. I guess I been more bold with things and been kind of comfortable with my body more.
In what way this week were you thoughtless? When gaming I guess I forget my surroundings.
In what way this week were you doubtless? I've actually been doubting relationships, giving people chances. I don't really want to hurt again and I don't want to go through it again. I feel like I'm fine on my own, I miss the comfort of having someone to run to though and 'that friend' to give me support, but yeah.

Link: http://www.friday5.org/

Tiny Haul-age Post: REVLON+MiSC.

2009-09-03T01:09:00.000-07:00

T i N Y H A U L A G E :D

Just stopped at a local drugstore.

W A L G R E E N S D:

Got my hands on REVLON's Nude Attitude.
I love it so much. : ]
I been wanting a nude lipstick for a while now.
I'd actually make my own nude lipstick using concealer and nude gloss.
Haha! So here it is, along w/randomness I bought.
Shampoo, and Carmex for my lips.
Recently got a sore on my corner lip.

IT SUCKS! :[

PEACE & PANCiT ! <3 LOLS.

Random Post: "Selling online" (Manga)

2009-09-01T14:48:00.000-07:00

I have paypal.
I have A LOT of manga that sits in my bookshelf that collects dust.
I have over 20-25 = Random sets (completed, and random vols.)
Read once.
Should I sell it?
I'm a pack rat... and I like to collect.
But they just sit there.
My room is small enough as it is, and I've been moving away from
"manga collecting phase".
Should I start a manga/comic book sale blog? And see if I can sell my stuff?
I don't know the first thing about selling though. lol
Should I take pictures of the sets and show and tell if there is any wear on them,
and how old and retail price to sale price compare, etc.?
And what about shipping!? rofl.

Names I thought of that I might use for sale blog:

Underneath I have words that comes to mind when I think of these user names.
Gives some sort of idea what might be behind it.
Also, seeing all these people be so unique and crafty makes me want to get back into
my "hands-on-art"ness. I used to make custom stationary, and I can VERY MUCH sew very well too. I've had ideas but I been super lazy and Call of duty takes up most of my time.
So hopefully I'll get around to this sooner or later!

misc-tique
(misc./random)(-tique from "boutique)
Plus misc-tique reminds me of Xmen Mystique. LOL

shopette
(shop)(fafinette makeup)
This name reminds me of on base air force shopette.

art-deli
(art/craft sale related)
(deli for something cute, fresh, mini store)
I think of cute freshness from this. I dono, something super artsy, unique, fun, and diverse.

sweet-emporium
(sweet - cute things)
(emporium - shop, high quality)
I think of flowers. Hand knitted, cute fruits/food/tea.

tea-outlet
(tea - cute, diverse, cultural, sweet)
(outlet - shop, sale, cheap, half off)
Asian/Diverse/Normal/Bland-to-New/Colors: mocha, vanilla, frosted red)

manila-market
(manila - everything asian related, books, cute stationary, filipino customs)
(market - shop)
Philippines. Asian. Pacific. Water. Islands. Warmth.

Food Post: Filipino Pancit w/Eggplant.

2009-08-27T18:09:00.000-07:00

PANCiT

=]

Packet:
Mama sita's Canton/Pancit

Ingredients:
Carrot
Celery
Pork
White noodles
Green Onions
Snow peas (optional)
Cabbage

Other:
Eggplant
white rice (brand - Calrose)

Rant Post: My sleep is bigger than yours. Your sleep...

2009-08-27T15:30:00.000-07:00

List of things-Said&Done-Maybe.

- New BlogSpot Layout
- Insomnia.. my sleep is ackward. Vampire-ish...
- RE:5 Gameplay today
(Hopefully I don't get pist @ him)
- It's that month-thing that women get. Yeah. Enouh said.
- New Banners EVERYWHERE! Woohoo!
- People in the past kind of piss me off, no names given. :x
- Actually childhood friends piss me off. :x
- Found 2 LA Colors art deco nail polish, saves me money. :D
(I think my mom brought it home from where she works) >_>;
- I want a blush, not just any blush... just some kind of omgthatsfuckingcuteblush!
- I wish I had a NES again (my mom gave mine away when I was little.)
- NES why? I mainly want to play Q*Bert again, rofl.
- I need to finish Twilight series, I'm lazy. Plus people ruined it allover YouTube.
- I need to finish Midnighters series by Westerfeld.
- I need to read SKINNED by Wasserman.
- I need to work on 4 art projects. (See: www.deviantart.com. Journal)
- I want to dye my hair back to black, if not that maybe honey-brownish. Maybe, Black.
- Most missed age is 16. I want to take it all back. :/
- Copic Markers, SET A. *NEED TO GET SOMEDAY* cus I have SET B. lol
- Copic Sketch Markers, Need to buy individuals to test them out.
- NYX Gliterali Palette keeps haunting me. I want it. For collection purposes. :x
- NYX sake lip tint haunts me too. I want that. :x
- Call bank to cancel these $12 withdrawls x2 coming from scammers. Ugh!
- Call FF to cancel subs. (No worries, I'm going to be on the new FF when it comes out)
- Call gym to cancel sub also.
- BUY this awesome AB workout home system to work out at home. :D
- Super early Christmas hunting/shopping before Nov. hits. :x :x :x <3 <3
- Get addresses for above ^ (If you are reading this guys I need: Derek, Hazel, James, Chris', Arial Addresses pls? :D)
- Might get rid of RockBand2, it's collecting dust. Should I sell or give it to someone for FREE? Hmm... I still have all the content for it, papers, etc, and the box to wrap it back up.
- Ask Josh for Deathnote vol. 1 back & The Orange Box & Odin's Sphere he borrowed half a year ago.
- Need a new hardback sketchbook for next year. (I always get a new one every year.)
- Need more makeup space... x_x
- I want new curtains. Pref. green or black.
- Also new comforter, pref. green or black.
- New computer, maybe.
- New digi cam, my lense broke, lol. I dono how... :[
- GAMES!: Halo ODST, COD MW2, BioS2, LP2, L4D2, FFXIV, Mario for Wii!! :D
- I been wanting to play Sims for some reason, that new one but I heard bad reviews on it. Just been in a Sims mood lately or the Urbz for PS2. Haha!
- I also can't wait for Diablo 3.
- Speaking of PC gaming.. I miss Age of Empires. Where is it!? Prob. at my ex's house. :(
- Speaking of PC gaming.. I think I really do need a new comp. but that leads to more space in my room.
- Speaking of room... I really hope we do move because I want a bigger room.
- Job. License. LPN?/Nursing. Job. Art. Something... school. Something...!?
- Back to Resident Evil 5. Hopefully he doesn't die a lot. I could SNAP any minute. :D
- P.S. It sucks being a girl 'every month'. ;_;

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Makeup Post/Review: ELF Studio 75% Off "Haul".

2009-08-25T18:23:00.000-07:00

WHAT'S IN THE BOX?!

[ I spent $30 & SAVED $80 total
would have been $100+ w/out the code. ]

E.L.F.
e y e s l i p s f a c e

was having a 75% on everything under Studio.
Which... btw. is also still having another sale 50%
on the Mineral line! (code: NEWMINB50)
& Also another thing going on is
$20 Encyclopedia DVD set (code: BTSABE)

See entry I wrote on August 14- something.

I went ahead and stocked up on their makeup brushes.
(2x), I was curious about their new makeup:
eyeshadow in Amethyst, that was the only one
that seemed to grab my attention since I already
have WAY too many eyeshadows.. (NYX)
Anyway, 2 blushes in Candid Coral and
Peachy Keen. Again, eyeshadow was
called Amethyst. The eyeshadow seemed
very small, for some reason I was expecting
it to be a little bigger, lol. :P

First thing inside was the 2 Kabuki's, makeup & 2x blush brushes
that they recently added so I went ahead and bought 2 blush
brushes just to have some kind of matching sets to go along
w/the studio brush sets I bought in 2x.

Kabuki brushes were for body and face so I went ahead
and bought those 2 as well. I already tried them out,
I only ran my hands across the brushes, they feel EXTREMLEY
soft, just like 100% of the reviews I've seen who blogged/vlogged
about them. I love them alot, I couldnt stop messing with it. LOL
The quality is amazing, and the colors are amazing too.
I love black and white together, they remind me of a skunk,
which isn't a good thing but it's a cute skunk.
Brushes all did have some kind of ackward smell to them
but after cleaning them, that won't be a problem.
The painting on the brushes are good quality as well,
nice and sleek, soft to the touch, and very well made overall. A+

Underneath was 2x Studio brush sets.
I had no problems with packaging,
Both sets were packed nice and tight,
the box it was delivered in, they were
all wrapped w/hard tissue like paper.

2x 20pc. Makeup Remover's
I was curious about these.
I haven't had any luck on finding
makeup remover cloth's that's
good for sensitive skin, so
I am hoping these might work.
I bought 2 incase, since it was 75% off anyways.
2 because it only had 20 qty.
That isn't a lot. lol

WHAT TO EXPECT IN NEXT BLOG ENTRY.

NEXT UPDATE >> I started opening the contents of everything and now I'm trying to figure out what I should do w/the spare set of brushes, I might put them in one of the 2 makeup brush holders I bought in the 75% off studio, which was the Makeup Artist brush belt and the zipper puch one, or I have 3 vase brush holder's I tried out, see pictures below.

EDIT >> Pictures of the makeup Artist brush belt and brush zipper pouch:

Note: I liked it. It's sleek, but of course the quality isn't super great but it's good. lol But I like it, I might even put some decorations on it (I have sewing skills. It's another talent I don't really like to brag about.. ROFL) :x shhh

Note: I like the logo on the bottom left. It's cute. =]

Note: It's simple. Reminds me of this other zipper pouch I own (unknown name) that I got from a friend that had brushes in it too I also wish I knew the brand because those brushes are amazing... :O But yeah mine is more taller since the brushes it came with are taller and bigger than standard ones. This is great if I'm going somewhere, easy to toss brushes in and just go! lol.

My older vase I used for the reg. ELF brushes

This used to hold my fake plastic flowers. ROFL

Thought this tin can was cute. Haha

NEXT UPDATE >> Reviews on 2 blushes, 1 eyeshadow (Candid Coral, Peachy Keen, & Amethyst).
EDIT >> Candid Coral (L) & Peachy Keen (R) - I swatched these once and already I can tell these probably won't work well for me. I'm kind of lightly tanned, and the peachy didn't seem to appear on my, just gave me a light shimmer, coral gave me some color, overall these were beautiful colors, I just wish I can find the perfect blush for my skin tone. So I guess my next purchase might have to be the infamous "NARS - Orgasm" since I never bought that one yet. Packaging is great, it reminds me of NARS packaging and it's sturdy, only thing I had problem with is the plastic on lid literally fell out. So that's only fixable if I super glue it back I guess.
EDIT >> Amethyst E/S - I didn't expect it to be THIS DARK. And the e/s was like super small. Kind of. For some reason I figured it might be a little bigger. Anyway, it seemed more of a very dark plum color w/some copper/brown tones in it. Some metallic shimmer also. This is probably perfect to give dark definition on the corner of eyes or sweep out for smokey looks I guess. Packaging similar to blush and the plastic thing again can easily be broken off lid so I was careful not to touch the plastic part. Overall it's a cute color but not what I was expecting it to be like shown in the website. But I guess I never learn because sometimes advertisement is NOT WHAT IT SEEMS. So you take risks, and ehh it was just $3 & 75% off so I'm not complaining too much. :P I think I'll just stick to buying tools from ELF, their brushes so far are my most fav. by them.

Nail Polish: Pure ICE - Hot Tamale 762

NEXT UPDATE >> Makeup Removers.

Small Claire's palette I got from my sister way back,
these were fun to play around with. I decided to color allover my
eye to see the results. Random Beauty Essence brush btw.

My fav. look! LMAOjkjk. Crazyness.

The icky part. lol
So when I started to remove my makeup
I noticed a burning sensation around my lids.
That wasn't good so I had to wipe my eyes w/kleenex
afterwards to get the leftover wetness from the wipes
because it was stinging really bad.
Note: I still have yet to find... a decent makeup remover
(pref. in wipes.. ) but all seem to sting my eye really bad.
Maybe I should use cleansing types in a bottle??

Overall.. the packaging is awesome, as always I believe
ELF focuses on packaging than their makeup. >_>
That's just my opinion! lol But yeah... I love their
packaging, it's very good looking, just I have trouble
still "liking" the product itself. Maybe it's just me!?
My eye felt sore a little so I had to use OLAY
This clear gel thing I use to help reduce "puffyness"
& "future wrinkles" etc. But it's very soothing and cool
once on skin. So yeah. :D

Picture of my skin routine
(which hasn't changed for almost a year)

Newest products is stuff by Neutrogena. I've been having some acne problems lately, not sure if it's stress or what but I never had it that bad, I guess. LOL but it's working like it said, only thing that sucked was it was bringing up all the bad then it was reacting to it and adusting to it and slowly it's showing results. So it's been about 4 days I've used the products and I like the product. CLEAN & CLEAR Night has always been a #1 fav. I've had it for a year now and it's super moisturizing and my face doesn't feel oily after using it. The St. Ives is something I picked up half a year ago, my middle sister was using it and one day I decided to use and, I switched from using Neutrogena to that. So it's kind of a mixture and that kind of sorta bothers me. LOL

NEXT UPDATE >> "Today's Makeup" Makeup I did today, but I'll post that up tomorrow w/a link to my collection/haul on ELF Studio linked.

Edit >> A video post will be linked here later off of my MySpace video channel & pictures of me using Amethyst which I hope will turn out okay since I'm still iffy about the color and I want to use Coral as blush so we'll see how this goes.. >_>

That's all for now! Later! :3

Food&Makeup Post: Filipino (Laga) & Grey-Neutrals.

2009-08-24T16:47:00.000-07:00

F O O D > > M A K E U P > > E T C .

_____________________________ L A G A ! ! !
So yeah. Today I'm eating "Laga", I asked my mom and she said it's spelled that way, I guess. lol. I've had this alot growing up, it's just beef, and tomato, and some kind of leaves... tastes like elephant leaves whatever it's called, and I guess the American version is called "mustard greens" or "collard greens" or something, they are a little similar, kinda.

Anyhow, it's not salty, kind of bland, the beef is what gives it a good flavor and best served with rice, I think the beef is called 'neck bone' and the meat is really tender if you boil for a couple hours, and just add salt and water, tomato, and whatever 'greens'/'vegetables' you want.

This reminds me of another dish I eat, 'stir fry', or whatever it's called but it has the same ingredients but we usually use this vegetable called 'opo' (sp) and cut in triangles and use pork instead, with tomato and stir fried whole garlic&onion.

TODAYS LOOK ____________________________

- All NYX products (for eyes)
- NYX Smokie mountain
- NYX taupe pearl
- NYX lip gloss in watermelon
- NYX eyeliner in black
- Rimmel Vinyl Gloss - ELF (for lumi&bronze)
- Shine - Mark., kiwi spray, lol. :D
- LOREAL felt tip eyeliner
- Maybeline pulse mascara
- I kind of kept it more natural,
this is what I would wear daily,
nothing heavy, mostly eyeliner,
mascara, grey-neutral colors.

X O X O

Makeup Post: "Sunset Eyes" by Michelle Phan.

2009-08-16T19:02:00.000-07:00

Makeup Credit: Michelle Phan
Visit her YouTube! www.youtube.com/user/MichellePhan

Today I was looking on YouTube and Michelle Phan made an another AMAZING video tutorial on makeup. I loooooved this look so much so I tried it out with my MANLY Pro. Palette. It's kind of like BenNye but I doubt since I never owned a palette by BN.

Anyway, MANLY palette can be purchased at www.BF-Beauty.com, or try Ebay if you want it a little cheaper! Shipping takes a week mostly if you are in U.S. because it's from Hong Kong.

Picture :D

Art Post: Jaoooo? Caio!

2009-08-14T10:15:00.000-07:00

COPICS!
Jao? Caio? Chao!?

courtesy of google.com

Jao is actually something on Phantasy Star Universe. Caio reminds me of Jao but aren't they the same? I've been wondering that. I mean with the Jao = Chao? Remember Sonic Adv. Battle for Gamecube? Yeah that one. Reminds me of that... are they the same!? I might have to sift through my games and check for sure... kind of can't remember!

Anyway... ! Today is starting out fantastic... I ordered ELF studio brushes and today! FedEX delivered my Copics!!! =] I guess I really needed this to boost some art confidence and just the overall excitement. I been needing it badly. VERY BADLY.

I like stopped drawing for half a year or more so this is was really something I needed. But also I wanted to thank a couple of people that I've known for quite some time now (couple years now!) for sticking by me and encouraging me in their little ways.

Mainly:

SnakeLinkSonic (Matty Po Tatty, haha) for finding ways to make me draw something-anything! And just looking at his artwork makes me want to draw anyway!

FoolishxLady (For all her compliments)

Derek for always saying my drawing's are good and to not give up.

Arii for always saying she missed my artwork <3

Thank you guys. Ilyyy <3<3^_^

Piccccctuureesss!! =^_^=

I'll post artwork soon!! Speaking of that... 3 thing's are still being worked on. 1. Collab. w/SnakeLinkSonic, 2. A large continuing drawing of game/anime characters. 3. Some made up characters from old sketchbooks on one page.

Makeup Post: E.L.F. 75% Off!

2009-08-14T09:07:00.000-07:00

Currently ELF is having a HUGE 75% OFF on STUDIO.

GO!GO!GO!

It's been a while! 2 thing's. I'm waiting for the Copic Caio's to come in today, it just arrived in my city and now it should be here this afternoon. I'm going to shower and wait a bit. So excited! Second thing, if it wasn't for FoolishxLady (her makeup blog & craft blog!!!) I probably wouldn't have known and I been wanting to try out ELF's studio brushes for a while now. Also check her out because she's like a major ELF guru. Haha! :P

Promo Code: WWYB75S
Promo Code: WWYB75S
Promo Code: WWYB75S

Spent $30.45
Saved $80.00

I'm excited to try the Studio brushes!

Personal Post: Laptop Troubles

2009-08-05T14:47:00.001-07:00

EVIL BABY

Short story:

I ALWAYS keep my door shut. So before I start babbling I have a 1 year niece whom I love to death but think she's an evil baby sometimes. AN EVIL EFFEN BABY... So I ALWAYS shut my door okay. ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS!!! Because last time she got into my ashtray and I had to clean the ashes off my carpet and that sucked gigant0rz. So anyway! I was in the kitchen being it is my dad's 54th B-Day. I'm cooking muhfuggin fried rice, lmao. So my younger sister Stacy, yells in the back and says she found Khloie (my middle sister's daughter, my neice, aka EVIL BABY) was messing with a knife.

Okay... I don't know why I have a knife in my room maybe from eating something and I set it under my stool.. lmao.. but she found it and she did the worse thing imagineable. She cut my laptopscreen, there's a tiny cut but this cut is in the middle and not only is it so noticeable I have to deal with staring at it 24/7 hours of my effen life! This is going to bother me. It's going to drive me crazy. I'm actually looking at it right now.

I don't know if that is fixable... but there is a slim chance that the other problem which is the buttons "8" and "J"... she stabbed the knife allover my keys... luckily there is no scratches on the buttons but she pretty much ripped "8" and "J" keys out of it's place. I tried to put them back in it's spot but behind "J" the thing that attaches is loose and doesn't want to attach to it's spot on the laptop... I'm very annoyed right now because usually I run to my bf (who is now ex for like, that was 5 months ago, but ANYWAY!! back to the real problem!!) I'm just clueless with fixing this... I usually can fix my shit 90% of the time but this I can't seem to fix. So my neighbor friend Kye should be home he hasn't texted me back yet but I'm waiting, he's a computer whiz...so hopefully he'll come by tonight and fix it for me. :(

I feel bad that she was playing with a knife. But I'm thankful she didn't get hurt. But I'm furious that she did all this but of course she is just 1 years old...what does she know?! My family here aren't taking it serious... so I'm the only one here kind of pist off my ass!

So lastly, I might have to lock my door and have a key with me. And never have evil babies! Never!!!

Courtesy of Google.com

*UPDATE* 7PM Kye came over and fixed it! Yay! :)

Makeup Post: Finding that perfect red.

2009-08-05T12:23:00.000-07:00

THE PERFECT RED

Lately, I have been looking everywhere to find the perfect RED lipstick. It's come down to the top 10 I thought was the best red lipstick. But now the hard part, deciding!

- MAC: Lady Danger $14.00
- ELF: Royal Red $5.00
- NYX: Tribute to Marilyn $7.00
- NYX: Revamped $7.00
- SHISEIDO: Dragon $25.00
- CARGO: Maria $20.00
- NARS: Christina $24.00 ( hehe.. I like the fact my name is the type. :x )
- BENEFIT: Frenched $18.00
- LANCOME: Absolute Rouge $29.00
- LORAC: Recieve $19.00

I'm leaning towards Shiseido's Dragon, NARS' Christina ( only because my name lmao! ), and NYX's Tribute to Marilyn.

P.S. Happy Birthday Dad! <3>

Hygiene Post: Bath & Body Works SALE.

2009-08-04T23:37:00.000-07:00

Great deal going on @ Bath and Body Works.
7 for $20 dollars + ship. NOT BAD :DLink: www.bathandbodyworks.com

Wal-Haul Post: Mineral Makeup & Loreal Eyeliner

2009-08-03T20:11:00.000-07:00

NEW SKIN ROUTINE
NEW FACE COVERAGE

My favorite "grocery", "drug store"-type of store to buy makeup is usually Target or Wal Mart. I sent my middle sister out and she picked up a few thing's that I wanted to try. I only used Maybeline's concealer but NEVER tried the foundation loose mineral powder and the mineral liquid foundation! So these three worked pretty well! I was skeptical with the choice of color she picked but I guess I'm med. beige? lol I thought I'd be lighter but it works.

Then she got me this Neutrogena Acne face treatment set. It only costed $19.95 I think? I was eyeing this for the longest and I haven't tried it all yet but I'll probably re-blog about it. I need a new skin care routine. So fare I've been using St. Ives products and Neutrogena's blackhead control. And Clean & Clear's Night moisturizer.

LOREAL Liquid eyeliner. This is like my 6th eyeliner within the past 2 years now? lol. I prob. buy just 3 each year of course in a span of like 4 months or so. They are sooooooooo good if you want that wing effect or bold look or a very clean line. This is my most favorite liquid eyeliner ever! I remember thinking back I used to only use kohl liners and stuff, by Wet N Wild, the black one. That was the best eyeliner ever! Also another that I been using recently was REVLON's kohl eyeliner in black also. But Loreal's liquid eyeliner = THE BEST. A+++++ :D lol

Here's a picture of my double winged eye look, I winged out on top and bottom in a sorta straight type of line. :)

x o x o

Art Post: Buying Art Supplies Online.

2009-07-31T23:26:00.000-07:00

It's a hassle. It's frustrating. Especially being totally new with this brand, not knowing if it's 100% good or not. But it took me a month to review and compare. So I made my decision just tonight and bought Copic Caio 72-B, 1 CC Colorless Blender, 1 CC Black, and 50 sheets of Copic brand paper for the markers specifically.

Where am I going with this? I'm asking myself the same question. Maybe in hopes that MAYBE I'll do well with these markers. Hopes that I might sell art in the future.

I want to practice, not just sell art, but to learn, expand my art capabilities that I might have... or hope I might have I guess.

I'm worried. Is this purchase worth it. There was MANY times I spent money on thing's that was ridiculously expensive... and ended up not really using/needing. So this, I hope it will be put to good use. And I guess I can always re-sell if I suck at it that bad... I just hope this was worth.

I'm having mixed feeling's about it right now.

Video Game Post: DutyGASM.

2009-07-27T17:21:00.000-07:00

1 1 1 O O 9

Okay, so this is non PSU related. I haven't been able to blog about anything lately, this is probably slightly old news being there's over 15k+ views now, and this is just one that I looked over. I really love the look of the new CoD. I'm so excited and it's almost near! Almost... :)

Video here incase you haven't seen and don't feel like YouTube or w/e video searches you do!

Multiplayer: (YT Credit: http://www.youtube.com/user/freestuufguru )

Another video posted about a month ago: (OLD)

Alright so! I always wanted to explain what's been going on with me these past few days. PSU has been making me pretty busy and there was about 4-5 comments in my previous blog that I did not get around to yet but I will probably before the end of today. =] So sorry to the one's I have not got around to yet! <3

And like I said I will keep this as CoD only... I'll do another entry about PSU and what about it that has been keeping me busy! Let's just say we have another update. It's only been 4 days now. But anyway I'll write a separate blog for it by tomorrow!

Video Game Post: Great Finds.

2009-07-26T13:28:00.000-07:00

GUITAR HERO III

So just looking through Ebay randomly, this was 5 days ago. I came across this brand new never opened Guitar Hero III w/wired guitar. I couldn't pass it up. There was about 2 other bidder's bidding. The cost of this was $12.00 at end when I came across it. Shipping was only $2.00, I was very skeptical but I gave it a try, I ended up winning, the total: $16.00 lol. The person only made a $4.00 profit... the shipping costed this person about $12.00 dollars. Crazyness? The guitar itself cost's alone around $30-40 dollar's ALONE! If you're lucky maybe a little less than $40. The game itself is around $25-30.

Video Game Post: Marvel vs. Capcom® 2

2009-07-24T11:36:00.000-07:00

I've always hoped for something like this to hit the arcades. And well... it's finally here! This is actually worth my money. I believe it will cost roughly $15.00 dollars at the most. :[ But I love MvC! I remember this on Dreamcast most. Anyway, this is just a picture & a video post (link provided by the author.)

XBox 360 Arcade Games for the summer:
Marvel vs. Capcom ® 2

Official Xbox / Link to Author of this video: http://www.youtube.com/user/officialxbox

Picture Post: 1up!

2009-07-24T00:06:00.000-07:00

1up!
My friend SnakeLinkSonic told me I was on the "featured blog" on 1up.com I was honestly cheesin. :D I don't know how, why but I hope my blog was worth the read and informative... and not boring. I just wanted to write about a game I play on the daily and hope it was helpful to new and old people that play the game! And crazy. I just so happen to be wearing this t-shirt too. Haha! More @ www.1up.com & www.TinaBabie.1up.com

Makeup Post: NYX - TheCaribbean Collection

2009-07-22T15:40:00.000-07:00

Derek Haul #2.
Thank you bestie<3<3 ^_^

The box was pretty heavy so I was very clueless on what this package contained. :D

So when I opened it.. they all came in brand new sleek cases. The good is that it's themed like how the collection says "The Caribbean Collection" so I can actually see what they mean, the colors are very pigmented, some shimmery, and some slight matted. The bad, I can already tell, with me wanting to keep thing's nice and neat/clean. The casing is so sleek that immediately it picks up your fingerprint leaving a imprint so I always have to wipe it down or something. The brush applicators are very different compared to the trio eye shadow's. They're now black and a lot smaller and seems less flimsy though but I don't use the brushes in here so I guess that doesn't matter now does it? lol.

Pictured: ESP5C 07 - I dream of Jamaica

Pictured: The whole set, EXCEPT "Nevis" there was a mistake in the list and they had the list of Barbados TWICE and there was only 9 when there was 10 purchased so that is being taken care of atm. So I'll prob. update this another time and show Nevis later. :[

Pictured: The back of the product and the list of it's names.

NYX did have a sale roughly a half a month ago when they first released this. I only got half of the new single eyeshadows and lip glosses so these were a huuuuuuuuuge plus. :P But also, the sale is over but you can kind of get them a little more cheap at BeautyShopOc. (www.beautyshopoc.com), and the original retail is at: www.nyxcosmetics.com, or www.cherryculture.com!

Random Post: Final Fantasy XI & 1Up Figure FOUND!

2009-07-22T01:45:00.000-07:00

NEKKID & LUVIIN IT XD JKJK

Pictured: Pinaizee (My Taru)

So after that gruelling long hour post...I was reactivating my FF account for some reason there was errors/problems with the Play Online but I got it fixed... and after downloading the newest content to FF it took about 30min or less. But right now I'm kind of confused where I am and what I was doing there in the first place in that part of town. I'm only lvl 54 WHM and lvl 27 RDM (I swore that was higher though? or is this capped, who knows!?)

Pictured: My Taru & Lunar Cap descripto.

Anyway, I'm slowly remembering thing's but I have been wanting to lvl up more because I want to be able to wear my WHM armor! So I'm excited for that and I want to check out the new updates and get my new free item that me and my friend share which is over in Bastok. ;_; But I guess we can warp halfway with my warp spells. >:D

Pictured: My Xbox 360 controller and 1up Shroom! ;D

So.. onto something else.. I found my little 1up mushroom thing. lmao. I was scared it got thrown away from my mom or something!!! But here he is still alive and well, lol. :D With that I'm going to probably use it as my 1up page default picture and my other blogs default instead of me... this is also to test if I can get views w/out having me as my default.. I don't know where I'm going with this but yeah.

Drawing? Yeah.. working on the collab. that SnakeLinkSonic (Matty Po Tatty. :x) and I are doing.. =] And the gamer/anime thing I was doing is set on hold, another drawing on HOLD! because I'm having to make a list of requested character's so yeah.. and lately I been wanting to use copic marker's so bad. Why do they have to be so expensive!? I'm going to have to set aside makeup for a while. But I'll get the makeup I want first then save for copics. I'm about 80% satisfied with all the makeup I have but there's is still a few I want on my little list I made! :x Anyway! I'm done, going to try to figure out what I'm doing on FF and get that free prize... and I can't wait for new FF game soon! But a little sad cus I might discontinue this FF account to start the other FF that's going to be released!! >_<;

PS// @ 344AM I went to pick up my free Sprout hat. lol :P
Sooo cute!! But I should srsly lvl soon. But I'm gonna go to sleep now. z_z